Alpha's Little Secret

Chapter 7| Drama On Set

I could feel their eyes on me. Judging every single word that escaped my lips. It seemed as if I had become hyper aware of what other people thought. Even under the bright studio lights and lengthy memorized scripts, I felt like something wasn't right.

"Cut!" The director shouted. I looked off set behind the cameras wondering what had happened. Was it me? Was I doing a bad job making my character believable?

"Jacob, you seem distracted. Like you don't want to be here," the director commented. The short omega boy who played my younger brother took a deep breath. He seemed nervous, almost uncomfortable. Was it me that was causing this? Was he still upset? Maybe I should've apologized. I was a little harsh the other day when I didn't mean to be. It's just...I hate when people try to control my life.

"Ummm...can we take five? My throats a little dry," I asked, looking at the director. The man looked between me and Jacob and nodded. Whatever it was that was bothering Jacob, it had basically become my job to fix it. I quickly grabbed his hand and pulled him into a private dressing room.

"Hey Jakey...about the other day..." I looked into his doughy eyes feeling my entire body freeze. He looked absolutely miserable. Had my comment really affected him that much. I didn't mean anything by it other than that I didn't want someone who was an actor. "-I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that and I know I hurt your..."

"You're an idiot Max," the younger boy mumbled. I was utterly confused. So it wasn't my comment? Then why was he acting like this.

"I guess it's my fault for not being straight forward and acting like I don't feel the way I do. I mean...why would you notice? You like them pretty and I'm not that," he explained. My feet were cemented to the floor as I stared in shock. Not once had I considered the possibility of Jacob liking me. I simply overlooked it because he fit the role of my little brother so well. The way he looked up to me. The admiration and the unmistakable adoration. He was always watching me. Always-

He was right. I was an idiot. How could I not notice? That's why Olivia got so angry the other day. She knew about Jacob's feelings. How could I have missed that? Was I that delusional and selfish? Did I only think about myself?

"Then you go and basically admit to liking some...some fucking whore! Someone who sells there body to..." I quickly stopped Jacob from saying anything that would make me hate him, by covering his mouth. He knew nothing about Drake. None of them did. I knew his spiteful judgment was raised out of jealousy. Jacob was a timid and kind hearted boy who would understand anything if explained well, but right now he was emotional and heart broken.

"Jacob..." I paused, trying to collect the right words to say. I didn't want to break what had already been broken even more. "The reason why I never looked at you as a potential mate is because I don't want you to end up feeling worse than you do already. I really care about you and putting you through something like that when I don't....when I don't feel..." I was scared of how he'd react. To know the person you liked might not feel the same. It was a fear I knew all to well, but for Jacob it was a reality. There was nothing really wrong with the omega boy, I just felt like he needed someone that wasn't me. Someone who looked at him the way I looked at Drake.

"It's okay..." I watched tears escape the corner of his eyes, falling down his smooth cheeks. I never meant to hurt him like this. This was so random and it had caught me off guard. "I know already. You smell just like that damned omega. I guess you found him? It really doesn't matter does it. In the end, you want someone else," Jacob sighed. What was I supposed to do? How do I fix this? I cared about how he felt and I didn't want our relationship to be fractured.

"Jacob I'm sorry. If I did feel that way for you...I would've..."

"You don't have to explain anything to me. I get it. I'm just your little brother and a little brother should stay in his place," he said storming off before I could say anything else. I stood there dumbfounded and even more confused. It didn't matter if I gave Jacob what he wanted or not. It all would've ended with him heart broken.