SELF HARM TW‼️‼️
I run to my room and slowly shut the door, then i collapse on the floor, struggling to breathe as I sob harder than I ever have. Alcohol makes everything worse, especially sadness, it just multiplies it by 10. I hit myself in the head, wanting all of these thoughts to just be quiet for a few seconds so i can catch my breathe, but nothing stops, everything I said, everything she said, just keeps on replaying in my head. The fact she didn't care about what i said, she didn't care how drunk i was, she just doesn't care.
I haven't even gotten a message from my sister in days, not even she cares about me. No one does.
I crawl towards my dressing table and grab the blade, slicing my hand accidentally in the process. I rest my head against my mirror and scream out as the blade goes deep into my wrist, deeper than ever before, sending goosebumps down my body. I cut again, even deeper than the last one, making the air catch in my throat and choke me. My breathing slows as all the muscles in my body relax. I slump down until I am fully lying on the floor.
It takes me a few moments to realise how light headed I am, and how much the cuts are bleeding, forming a small pool of blood on the floor, i sit up abruptly and grab my wrist, making me wince. I slowly stand up as I am extremely dizzy and walk to the bathroom to grab a towel and put pressure on the cuts, still bleeding massively.
I don't know what to do, I cant go to the hospital, i've got no way of getting there, and even if i did i couldn't because i know id get put into some sort of mental health program, possibly back to rehab if they figure out i'm on drugs.
I have to ring Fez
"Fez" my voice sounds so croaky.
"yo you okay?" He sounds concerned.
I need to get straight to the point before i run out of time, the towel is soaked in blood.
"i'm bleeding out, i need you to come"
I hear him get up from wherever he is and run out of the front door.
"what the fuck happened!" he shouts, getting into his car.
"I cut myself, too deep." I start to cry.
He doesn't say anything, but i can hear the engine of his car accelerating.
"Hold on." He says firmly, his voice cracking slightly.
I stare at my ceiling as tears roll down my cheeks and wait for fez.
YOU ARE READING
You are home.
Fiksi Umummelody and fezco, pls read, you wont regret it♥️ When Melody and Rue return from rehab, they don't plan on staying clean, that is until Melody is introduced to the town drug dealer, her life flips upside down as she is forced to choose her love for...
