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15. We Should Talk

HYUNJIN

"You are no one to meddle in my life!"

"You can go fooling around with anyone you like! We have different life now!"

Yes, Felix. Thank you for reminding me about that. I have been carried away by my emotions too much until I forgot about our status.

Miles away from the bar where I met Felix hours ago, there's one long river laying along the road near my rented house.

I sats on the bleachers at the roadside. Letting my soul swaying with the night breeze and swam along the water.

My eyes crashed out and formed a pool of tears, even faster than the water that is wavering in front of me.

"Unfortunately, I still... Love you." I said, hiding a pain but seems like my voice wants to make it obvious.

Something brutally robbed my heart out of it track and it gets thrown somewhere I cant reach out.

"I hope you can love me again." My voice sounds desperate. "B-because I love you.. a-and I never stop." I cant control my voice now.

These tears just fall like a waterfalls, flooding my drenched heart and colden the old memories that already freezing.

"Would it be a day when I can say that again?" I know no one can hear my question, not even Felix.

"No, right? There's no chance anymore."

I just want to let it go, all of it. Yeah all of it without any regrets.

"I just hope you wont cry again, Felix. Because if you cried.. its hurting me."

Since I cant let go of him.

I let the night sang the lonely lullaby as I got home. Laying down under my blanket, not trying to sleep. I just felt exhausted from crying until I am not be able to close my eyes because it gets too swollen.

After a long night, I just know that I should tell him my true feelings. That I cant get over him, that I cant bear to see him with that guy.

That I.....

That I want him back.

Today might be my last day telling him how I felt about him. If he happens to change his mind, he will greet me with a smile tomorrow.

So I dialed his numbers with so much hope.

(ringg! ringg!)

"The number you've dialed cannot be reached out-"

I guess his phone must be off because he is still at the bar.

"Hello, Felix. If you get this message, please call me again. There's something really important I want to tell you. It might not be as important in your ears, but it is to me. I really hope... You will- nevermind. Just call me again, I beg you."

I decides to just leave a voice message in hope he will pay attention to it.

Just please, pay attention to it. Open your heart and give it a listen, I beg.

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FELIX

I finished bathing and doing my night routine. Well, its not night actually.. its already near dawn. Luckily I'm still on my off day tomorrow, so I can sleep the morning away.

Without delaying any longer, I smashed my body onto the bed and make myself comfortable before sleeping. I manage to avoid being too drunk today, because I dont want something unexpected happens to me again.