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26. The Scent

The flashbacks stops and brought me into reality again.

I stares at Changbin hyung in front of me.

"Binnie, yah! Hurry, we still have so many place to go." Yeonjun hyung come running towards us.

"Hyung." I greet him with a smile.

"Hey, lixie. How's the dance studio?"

Actually years ago, Yeonjun hyung offered me a job and that was to handle his dance studio and students. I was having fun working with him through these years until he added one more fun to me when he promoted me to be one of the tutor at his agency.

"Everything are just in good shape. And your students keeps improving." I said in proud.

"I'm happy to know that, I know I can trust you." He smiled at me brightly.

My face gets reddened, doesn't know how to handle praises. "No, I'm just doing my job."

He nods. We exchanged smile.

"Binie, lets go." Yeonjun hyung take Changbin's hand with him and they're about to leave.

But then, Changbin hyung turn around at me making Yeonjun hyung does the same.

"Lixie, I hope he would comeback to you. No matter sooner or later."

I stares at him, slowly curves a smile as I was wishing the same thing. "Pray for me." I said.

"Uh, Binie? Lixie? What are you guys talking about?" Yeonjun hyung interrupted, looking so confused.

Just remember that Yeonjun hyung also here, we both broke our stares and abruptly turns to him. Acts like nothing happens.

"No, nothing hyung- just.. you know gibberish." Changbin hyung answered fast.

Well, Yeonjun hyung never know about my problems with my ex. And he also didn't know that about a year ago, Changbin hyung and me were going to get married. We just promised to let it all go without any intentions to bring it up again.

And next week going to be the big day for Changbin and Yeonjun hyung. So the reasons to keep this secret are understandable.

Yeonjun hyung seem unconvinced, he gave us question face back and forth. We clenched our soul, not to seem like we keep something until he shrugged it.

"Nevermind." He said.

"Anyways, we both should leave now since there's so many more preparation we need to do today." He said looking so rushing.

"Okay, hyungs. Drive safe and congrats on your engagement!" I exclaimed in excitement imagining the grand event they going to held next week.

Both of them starts to gets blushing as they made eye contact. I'm glad that Changbin hyung finally find someone who suit his personality. They look like soulmates from afar.

"Dont forget to come, okay?"

"Okay! I will surely be there." I'm happily said to reassured them about my appearance there.

We wave goodbyes as they got into their car and drive away from there.

As I was left alone,

I start to sigh...

Sudden cold breeze slips into my bones and freeze me up.

I guess its almost winter and that's why the weather keeps down these days.

As I sat down on the benches around the park, my eyes scanning the whole layout of the playground and kids playing.

Weekend, days off and here I am. Spending time with just meditating and reminiscing the old days.

I stood up when I'm starting to feel bored. Contemplating to go home but then something poking my nose.

Its not just something ordinary, its..

Its the scent of lavender. The peaceful and sweet scent which is so familiar to me.

Suddenly my chest moving fast. My heart starts racing hard that it hurts. I turn around, finding the source of the smell.

I really need to know from where its coming. But as I look around, there's so many people walking around, exercising and playing. None of them hinted me that we have ever met.

But in the middle of searching, the scent finally gone. The pain in my chest immidiately perished too.

The light sighs leaving my mouth as I was taken by a bit of dissapointment.

Day by day,
I'm getting more and more desperate.

To some point where I cant even understand myself anymore. To the point I lost my mind and began to rethinking everything I did in the past. At the end of the day, I'm fallen asleep covered with guilts as my permanent blanket.

Things will never be fix anymore no matter how many years I wait. Its all.... just...

Pointless.
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NO ONE

Sun rained the day with the bright lights. Those noises from the playground caught his ears. He was sitting under the tree, in front of his large empty canvas, waiting for his finger to starts something colourful into it.

Averting his eyes to his surrounding,

So many things inspired him to draw.

With that, his fingers starts moving, creating sketches on his empty canvas.

Hyunjin inhales as he got immersed in his job. Feeling the cold and soft breeze seeps into his hair, brushing it severally before it gets to his bones amd made him calm.

The way people walking by, kids playing around, falling leaves and petals, Hyunjin drank the air and be inspired by everything.

But then, his nose caught some smell that is so familiar and close to him. The brush that was stroking all over the paper stops as he turn around to find out the source of the scent.

The soft anf fierce flower fragrance and sweetness from the perfume he was missing about so much. Hoping that he could see the owner of the perfume again, but all he get was dissapointment. No one was standing behind him.

Hyunjin let out a soft sighs.. checking the place again and again until he was confident to give up thinking it was not him.

I'm not dreaming,
The scent... Was still my favorite scent..

Its calming and soothing....

But also, its not you...
It would never be you again...

And I'm not dreaming..
This is reality..

He then continue drawing with all his heart. Pouring his feelings and emotions into it, Creating another masterpiece with a piece of his heart.
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(Another update after my long break... Sorry 😐)