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16. Go Away

CHANGBIN

"Are you being serious?" I directly asking the questions that arose in my head since hours ago.

Felix who is sitting at the passenger seat, looks at me with confusion.
"About what?" He asked.

While my focus was on my driving, I glance at him for a second. "About the whole thing happens at the party today."

"Yes, I'm being serious. Why? You didn't liked it?" But he seems unsure with that face he shows.

"No, I meant.. It doesn't made sense to me since you've rejected me twice already and today suddenly you came out as my boyfriend? ... Dont you think it was too rushing?" I swear, I didn't understand why he did that.

"I'm sorry to surprised you like that, hyung. But, I'm being serious. I really wanna be with you. And I said this out of my will." He said.

This time I can tell that he is serious about this.

"But Felix- dont get me wrong but I feel like you're joking. Its feel unreal for so many reasons." Because this doesn't made sense and I dont want to get my hopes up.

"Oh my god... Hyung. Look, I am not joking." He open his eyes widely, staring at me.

"Maybe that time I was wrong, I turned you down without give it time. But believe me or not, I keep thinking about it every night. And now, I've made up my mind to accept you. I want to give a chance for myself to fall in love with you, I want to be someone that you needed the most. Things I did earlier, its the way for me to show you that I'm trying." He said with an affirmation, showing how serious he is in this matter.

But can I trust him? He wasn't playing with my feelings just to get away from his ex, wasn't he?

"You said that because you wanted to, right? There's no force in that?" I needed the confirmation.

With that, Felix took my free hand and hold it with his warm hand. "Let's give it a try. If you find something's off about our relationship, just tell me. We can fix it together. Or... You can just dump me."

I look into his eyes and focusing on the street again. Even at one glimpse, he gave me reassurance that is telling me to go on.

Which is making me sure of what his heart wants.

"Felix?" I called in a low note.

"Hmm?" He hummed while looking at me.

"Would you stay with me even if you don't love me? I dont want any of us to suffer in this relationship."

And of course he took time to give response. I let him think. I know he said all those things already but if possible, I want to keep this with me forever.

"If you have patience with me, I will."

I smiled. That's enough for me.

"I will too."

I tightening the grip. This felt like magical! The wait is over, and now he's holding my hand! Even though its not like how others relationship, but I will try to make him fall for me. To the very end.

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HYUNJIN

Why is this night felt so long? Just when the sun is going to wake up?

I hate this night so much. I really hope I would fall asleep and forget about everything. Start anew once again without turning back.

Rolling in my bed, turn and toss but my eyes decides to betray me tonight.