Ash x Eiji classmates

7.

Eiji's pov

I put my bag down on my bed right after arriving at Ibe san's house. even after living with him for so long I still felt like a visitor, an intruder.

I let myself fall into the bed and close my eyes. Despite being exhausted from my day, I still can't drift into sleep. I keep thinking about how I ran away in front of everyone, how Shorter found me and called Ash, how he held me and helped me.

God I'm so pathetic it's embarrassing, if only I had been able to keep from cutting this morning, but no, I have to be a dumbass, can't stay clean for more than 3 days...

I felt some tears try to creep out of the corner of my eyes, I opened them, now staring at the ceiling and just letting the salty water stream down. god, I hated it all. This feeling of emptiness in my chest and my stomach, feeling like I'm a burden to anyone who knows me. I began crying more and more and the thoughts kept getting worse and worse. I then tried thinking back to what ash did to comfort me, thinking it could help. I hugged my pillow and thoughts back to how he seemed to genuinely care for me.

Yeah and you stressed him out you're a shitty person

He was so nice after, he even took me to the library

He wasted hours on you, just because you needed attention.

-flashback-

-So you're sure no one did anything to hurt you? Because trust me I can deal with them.

-No don't worry, no one did anything...

-Alright... Just know that if you ever want to tell me what happened or just talk you can get me. I'm often here reading books.

There was a moment of silence while he guided me to a secluded spot with a comfortable chair and a bean bag, which I sat on. Ash was just looking down, deep in thoughts.

-Hey..? can I ask you something, I said hesitantly.

-Go ahead, he answered with a smirk that I'm sure was fake.

-I mean.. last time I saw you well, you were shoving me in a closet and threatening me,
I kept looking at his facial expressions, half expecting him to get angry at me or just curse me away.   And now you were helping me and I just don't get what changed. I continued.

-Last time I mistook you for someone.

-Who?

-Anyone, someone dangerous, coming for me.

-Why?

-Because you were staring at me...

I felt the heat rise to my cheeks as I shifted uncomfortably on the seat. Ash didn't seem to notice, or he decided to spare me the embarrassment and ignored my big fat blush. lol

-But hey it's okay now, I know you're not dangerous and I guess I felt bad for scaring you. And shorter seems to care for you, so I guess I do too.

These words actually made me happy for a second, I whispered a brief thank you before closing my eyes. I heard Ash pick up a book in his bag and open it. I kept my eyes shut, trying to relax but I couldn't fall asleep, still feeling stressed about skipping class and just running away.

-end of flashback/dream-

I got woken up by knocking on the door, I guess I must have fallen asleep while crying. I felt so lost, like when you wake up from a nap and it's 11 pm and you're disconnected from reality. Ibe-San suddenly opened my room's door, bringing me back to my reality. That's right, I'm in America, away from my country, and from everyone.

-You weren't answering so I got worried.

-Yeah sorry, I was sleeping.

-Sports class wasn't easy I'm guessing.

I shrugged.

-Yeah you could say that.

-Well anyway, come on up, dinner ready.

He went back upstairs as I got up and looked at me in the mirror, what a mistake. I saw before me my red and puffy eye, dried tears in the corner, and even some drool from when I was sleeping.

Ibe saw that... either he doesn't give a fuck that I was crying or he thinks I'm an absolute freak, omg what if he decides I'm too much and kicks me out. He can't find out how bad it is. He can never know.

Short chapter sorry but I'm so proud I wrote it and posted it

For the next one you you guys feeder angst or fluff or a little bit of both??

Be safe, drink water and don't forget to go outside a little. Also thank you for reading this I love you <3<3<3<3