Him & I¹||Aidan Gallagher

12|I Love You

"The smile that you gave me even when you felt like dying..."

-Night of the attempt-

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Aidan's Pov:

I remember hearing Y/n, I could tell that she was trying so hard not to cry. "Aidan, s-stay with me. You're gonna be ok" I heard her say while her voice broke.

I nodded no, atleast I thought I did trying to tell her to just let me go. She was panicking, looking for something, and I didn't know what.

It wasn't until I felt her hand go into the pocket of my hoodie.

My phone, I should have left it in the car from earlier.

She started talking again, but I couldn't make it out, probably from hallucinating from the loss of blood.

At one point I had said no, why? I really don't remember. I hated that Y/n found me like this, or even seeing me like this. I had just put her through so much more now with killing myself.

•Present•

I opened my eyes a little, seeing Y/n in my arms. My head rested on hers while she was asleep, something made me look over, it felt like someone else was in the room with us. I looked over a little and sitting over by the window was Yelena.

I jumped a little, but not too much because knowing Y/n, she didn't sleep last night. "Jesus christ Yelena, make a noise or something next time." I whispered, she smirked and looked at me.

"Good to know you didnt lose your asshole spirit-" she joked, I rolled my eyes and looked down at Y/n. "How did she do.. when I was gone?" I looked up a little at Yelena, but something didn't seem right.

She looked down a little and clicked her tongue, "I caught her with a bottle of pills, and somehow wine last night a couple hours after they took you.." she spoke.

My heart dropped hearing that about Y/n, maybe trying to leave her wasn't the best option.

"It was stupid, I-I was stupid for even doing this to myself." I lied, like I've said before. I deserved every cut I made. A sudden knock made us both look at the door, seeing that the nurse that was in here earlier was back with papers.

"I'm really hoping those are the discharge papers right now.." I was annoyed of being here, I just wanted to go home and take a shower and sleep.

She gave me a nod and put them on the end table that was next to the bed and left the room, I rubbed Y/n's back a little to wake her up.

"Y/n.. Come on, were going home-" I said quietly, she sat up and rubbed her eyes a little. "How long was I asleep? Or we I should say-" she giggled a little. I smiled putting my hand on her cheek, "I have no clue.." and with that I kissed her.

She got up and I signed the papers, leaving them on the table and the 3 of us walked down the hall. I went to check what time it was on my phone until I realized that I didn't have it on me, "What's wrong?" Y/n asked.

I shook my head, "Nothing, I was just going to see what time it was." I saw her take out a phone, realizing that it was mine, "2:16" she said handing it to me. "I was thinking that maybe we go back home, and I get decent again-" I smiled at Y/n, but she looked confused for a second.

"What do you mean decent?" She questioned, "Not smelling like latex and whatever else the hospital uses to smell.. like a hospital?" I laughed.

She began laughing too, "Now I know what you mean-"

After getting back to the house I did what I said I was going to do, shower. I went up into my room grabbing a long sleeve shirt and then some pants and went to the bathroom, instead I used the shower that was downstairs instead of upstairs.

I didn't want to be reminded, or tempted again, I went downstairs with everything I needed and headed to the bathroom.

After turning the water on I felt relaxed, for a second atleast. "Shit.." I held my arm while the water continued to hit it, maybe I should have learned the consequences before doing this.

But I got used to the pain eventually, only thing was that it made me get out of the shower quicker.

I finished with everything in the bathroom and got out, I saw that Y/n was sitting on the couch looking for a movie to watch. I sat next to her and she stopped and looked at me, "Any specific movie you want to watch?"

She asked, "Stars wars?" I said, "Noo star wars is so..." she stopped. "So what?" I looked back at her, "Boring-" I pretended to be offended and looked away from her, "Aidan?" But I ignored her.

She climbed on my lap and I knew that she was still trying to get my attention. "Fine, we'll watch twilight instead-" I looked at her, "No, we're not. I've had to watch the movies before with my mom and I'm not doing it again-" I replied, "I'm kidding.. What about 101 dalmatians?" I swore sometimes that she could read my mind.

"I'm fine with that.." I smiled, she got up off of me and grabbed the remote and sat back down, but this time next to me.

"Did I do something wrong?" I asked her, "No? Why do you say that?"

"I want to hold you.. pleaseee" I whined.

"But I dont want to be held right now-" she mimicked my voice.

I smirked a little bit and after she put on the movie I pulled her over to me, "Aidan! No!" she laughed. Somehow she got away from me and was now at the end of the couch laying down.

"That wont stop me-" I went over and laid on top of her, hearing her giggle slightly. "Fine.. you win" she started playing with my hair, I looked at her and kissed her neck. "I love you." Y/n whispered, "I love you too, Y/n.." I whispered back.