Bitter Taste -yoonmin-

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Yoongi POV

"Stop pouting the grey aura around you is spreading," Seokjin said I flicked him off picking up my sandwich aggressively biting into it.

"Yah what did that sandwich do to you for to bite it so aggressively," Taehyung said I sighed wiping my hands on a napkin before I rub at my face.

"Guys I'm fine this is how I eat my lunch" I smiled they looked at each other and shook their heads.

"Fuck I can't take this will they won't they just go over and talk to him already," Taehyung said my eyes snapped towards him.

"Taehyung I won't-" I started but he cut me off

"Yoongi I'm fine honestly," he said "You obviously like him and he fucking obviously likes you back so just talk to him," he said I frowned and looked down at the table.

"Jimin doesn't like me..he told me many times" I mumbled

"Bullshit he wouldn't have punched that hell out of me if he didn't like you and I know my friend he likes you the only problem is that Jimin is stupid and stubborn and won't say how he feels so you have to say it first," he said my heart drummed.

"I-I can't...each time I try to reach out each time I try to say how I feel he crushes me and I can't take any more rejection" I sighed but both Taehyung and Jin smacked my head.

"Stop with that bullshit if you want something in life you have to go after it Jimin is head over hills for you I can tell by the way he looks at you," He said

"Yeah I agree with Taehyung the worst thing that could happen is rejection but you let yourself cry for two days than brush yourself off and move the hell on from Park Jimin,"  Jin said I pouted

"I'm so scared and if I don't reach out to him I don't have to face him when he tells me he doesn't love me back" I whispered softly then looked over at Jimin's table he was sitting with his friends.

"Love is messy and horrible and selfish and bold," Jin said "So you have to be bold in your actions so just talk to him," he said I bite my lip looking back at Jimin and he happened to look over at me our eyes locked before he looked away.

"Okay I'll be bold" I sighed

Lunch ended a few minutes ago and I stood outside the doors as nerves took over my body waiting for Jimin to come out my heart was pounding in my chest. I have never confessed to anyone before and here I was about to tell Jimin I loved him at school not a very romantic story but our story was never romantic.

He walked out the doors and I took a deep breath before I laid my whole feelings down in front of him.

"Jimin?" I spoke he stopped on his feet and looked at me.

"Yeah?" He said my heart was drumming so loud.

"Um, can we talk somewhere private?" I asked he looked shocked he looked left and right and down the hallway.

"I guess," he said and that was a good sign so I was happy.

"Cool um wanna go outside?" I asked he nodded and we moved silently to the school garden it was pretty out here a perfect place to confess near beautiful flowers and the smell of roses and lilacs.

We sat on a swinging bench it was fall but the weather was oddly warm I took a deep breath and turned towards him.

"Remember when we met?" I said he blinked like he was trying to remember.

"Yeah at the end of summer's party," he said I faced him completely.

"Not exactly...it was elementary school third grade we had a class together and all I wanted was one of those chocolate gifts you gave all the pretty girls on Valentine's Day I even tried to dress nicely all that week made my Eomma buy me new clothes so that maybe you will notice me and give me one those chocolates but when Valentine's day came and everyone was handing out gifts you walked right past me to give a chocolate to Heejin it's like I was invisible to you...my little heart was so broken because I liked you a lot back then which didn't make sense because I was so young but I did I liked you," I said he just started blinking at me.

"I really like you Jimin...and wanna be with you" I whispered I feel him touch my thigh.

"I was thinking the same thing..." he whispered and my heart soars maybe Taehyung and Jin were right.

"R-Really?" I asked he nodded hand moving to my hip we were a foot apart at this point.

"Yes of course," he said and my heart was jumping for joy I cupped his face.

"A-Are you serious? Y-You wanna-" but he dove into kissing me deeply and warmth spread through my body because Jimin did feel the way I did maybe everything would be okay.

"Yes I wanna start are fuck buddy relationship again," he said

It was like feeling glass shatter around me all the pieces falling around me no way to tape them back together again.

My hands fell from his face and the warm feeling I just felt wiped away I fly too close to the sun and got so burned.

I was still nothing to him...he didn't love me he didn't care about me it was all in my head...

He kept talking not knowing everything I felt for him was draining fast at his words they were crushing my insides he didn't know he didn't care he never cared.

"We could go back to the way things were," he said fingers fiddling with the end of my sweater "I like how things used to be I wanna go back to that," he said.

Tears were flowing out of my eyes and he looked shocked to see them I wiped my face aggressively then stood up.

"I-I don't want that Jimin I want a relationship I wanna be with you I wanna be able to walk down the hallway holding you're hand I want you to proudly say your my b-boyfriend!" I sobbed he looked shocked at my outburst.

"B-But you don't want any of that you wanted to hide me you're ashamed of me! I'm so stupid because I kept letting you hurt me over and over again because I-I...actually that doesn't matter you don't deserve to hear that" I sniffled my eyes glossy  "I-I just wanted to be with you J-Jimin I wanted the honor of being called y-your boyfriend that my heart belonged to you and...your heart belonged to me" I said backing up from him.

"But I never once had it..." I mumbled

He stood up arms reaching out but I stepped away from him and he retracted his hand putting it at his side his cheeks tint a little red "Y-You don't understand" he said I scoffed

"Then tell me...just fucking be honest with me for once Jimin tell me how you feel this is your last chance," I said making sure I locked eyes with him.

He stared at my face mouth parting then he shook his head "F-Fine...leave I don't care everyone else's leaves me s-so you should as well...I-I don't do relationship I'm fucked up okay? I can't give you what you want I can't hold your hand and I can't be your b-boyfriend because I'm unlovable so fuck off already" He said and I think my eyes were so tear-filled that I'm seeing things but I swear Jimin's eyes were glossy as he spoke.

But there it was the rejection I needed...he didn't feel the way I did it was the hard truth but I needed that from him and now I can try my best to finally move on from Park Jimin.

"I'm done Jimin this time I'm really done I can't bear it anymore" I whispered I took my house keys from my back pocket to unclip the keychain the matching one the sweet memories it held but they none of that matters anymore...

I let out some sniffles then walked over to the trash can outside and threw it away he just watched "You can throw yours away as well...it was stupid" I said then left the garden it was way past when the school bell rang. I was late to class when I arrived I got lunch detention but I didn't care I couldn't even focus on the class right now.

Only the shattered feeling in my heart

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ayeoo new chapter! I applied for so new jobs I actually hate mine haha and I don't get paid for how much I do it's fcked up

also I want to know my readers! What's ur favorite color? :)))

mine is sage green