Yoongi POV
"I said cry for two days it's going on day three" Jin said patting my back I just sniffled into my BMO plushie tears still leaving my eyes.
It's Monday I cried all weekend and going to school today was difficult enough with Jimin back to his old himself with pretty tall girls wrapped around him. Which is causing my little breakdown right now.
"I wish it didn't hurt me as much as it did...I'm so pathetic crying over a guy who never ever felt the same way I did" I said curling into a ball on my couch.
Jin rubbed circles into my back while the Big Bang Theory played on the TV "Let it all out sugar get all the sadness out than brush yourself off and become a bad bitch again that asshole doesn't deserve you" He said I sat up wiping my face.
"I just don't wanna be sad anymore...a-and I don't wanna love him anymore I'm so pathetic and unlovable" I huffed as I hugged BMO slumping back in my couch.
Jin stood up putting his hands on his hips "That's enough!" He said "No more being sad! You should be pissed at him! He is an asshole you should be mad at him for treating you like a old rag" he hissed but I just pouted.
"Pick up that lip! Just think about it he used you for your body! He took your virginity! He called you the wrong name many times! He wouldn't kiss you goodbye after fucking you! He would lead you on just to tear you down! He flirted with you when you had a boyfriend he sucks!" He said I let his words process in my head.
I gently placed BMO on the couch shooting to my feet "Your...your right! I should be mad he is a douche bag!" I said Jin nodded shaking my shoulders.
"Yes Yoonie get mad what else did he do?" He said I started to pace back and forth in my living room.
"He was embarrassed of me! Only hooking up with me behind close doors but when I approached him he would act like he didn't know me! He would say the worst things to me! He called me a whore!" I yelled Jin started to clap.
"HE SUCKS!" I yelled stomping my feet looking down at my socked feet when I felt tears drip down my face "H-He broke m-my heart" I whispered when arms wrapped around me tight for a hug.
"Oh yoongi my friend you have an amazing heart it's big and beautiful" he said I frowned into his shoulder.
"I wish I didn't..." I muttered
Jimin POV
"Jimin that's enough! Take a break" Namjoon said pulling the punching bag from me since I've been going at it for about 30 minutes now.
"No 10 more minutes," I said I was covered in sweat my blonde hair was sticking to my forehead and my back and neck we drenched.
"Hyung take a break" Jungkook said handing me a water bottle I shook my head.
"No have to keep going until this feeling goes away," I said punching the shit out of the sandbag.
"What feeling! You're gonna damage your hands" Hoseok said I kept going my knuckles feel like they are splitting.
"Jimin chill out!" Namjoon said I groaned leaning my forehead against the punching bag letting out a sigh my chest was heaving up and down.
"I want to stop feeling like an asshole for pushing away the guy I love" I whispered as I sunk to the ground feeling exhausted I leaned against the wall with all my friend's eyes on me.
I threw my gloves off they flew across the room as I closed my eyes trying to calm my rapid breath my chest feels like it was being squeezed and I know it was not the boxing that is causing me not to breathe.
"If you love him so much fucking tell him because your only torturing yourself at this point," Hoseok said I scoffed pushing the wet hair out of my face.
"I can't" I huffed
"Why not? You have been a complete mess for so long and if he makes you happy and you love him then go after what you want Jimin" Jungkook said my lung was getting squeezed like I was a pot about to boil over.
"If you keep this up your going to just push him away even more," Namjoon said I pulled at my hair and let out a loud sigh.
"Fuck! Can you guys shut the hell up" I hissed my chest hurt is much and I couldn't breathe I pulled at my hair so much it started to hurt I shoot to my feet kicking a nearby stool.
"Jesus fuck what's wrong stop bottling things up!" Jungkook said I sunk down on the wall clenching my fist.
"I-I just want...him" I mumbled "I have never felt this way before and I'm so c-confused and scared " I added they all stared at me.
"But I don't understand love or feeling or anything to do with relationships...I wouldn't know how to date and I'm scared to hurt him more than I already have" I spoke my head drooping low.
"Just talk to him damn it" Namjoon huffed
"Like it's that easy! What do I say ? Sorry for rejecting you so many times but I actually love you please date me?" I mocked
"Yeah kinda like that but more sweet maybe some flowers?" Hoseok said I rolled my eyes.
"I don't do sweet I literally don't know how" I huffed
"Maybe there is a YouTube video," Jungkook said pulling out his phone I threw my water bottle at him.
"Like you bastards know anything about romance," I said "Jungkook's body count is way higher than mine" I retorted.
"This isn't about me" Jungkook glared tapping on his phone "Oh! I found a video 6 tips on how to have a healthy relationship" Jungkook smiled I sighed laying on the floor feeling exhausted.
"Doesn't matter...I don't deserve him" I said looking at the ceiling of Jungkook's home gym my whole body deflating.
"You deserve love Jimin and so does Yoongi" Hoseok said I closed my eyes letting the empty feeling take over me.
"Why does everything hurt so much" I whispered
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the feels are all on the table they both hurting but maybe things will get better who knows?
also do you guys have any pets? I have a puppy named peppa she is a brat who chews on my socks
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Bitter Taste -yoonmin-
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