Bitter Taste -yoonmin-

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Jimin POV

"Oh Mimi your finally home" my mom smiled as I walked into the kitchen I smiled back at her she was stirring a big pot of something but it smelled delicious.

"Hey Eomma smells great," I said leaning against the counter watching her cook.

"Really I was hoping so I saw this new recipe on Tik tok for Korean Chili" she smiled I hummed

"You're addicted to Tik Tok Eomma it's getting out of hand," I said she scoffed.

"See if I give you any young man go set the table or no dessert," she said pointing her wooden spoon at me I put my hands up in defense moving to get the bowls.

"Is Appa here?" I asked sitting three spots looking over at my mom she deflated a little and turned off the stove.

"No he is working late tonight at the office it's just us tonight," she said going to the rice maker spooning it in a bowl.

I watch her face and immediately felt anger rise inside me I set two bowls at the table as she bought the food over to the table.

It's always just my mom and me because my so-called dad is always working late at the office which is code for he is fucking his assistants or interns or whatever wears a pencil skirt while my poor mom stays home waiting for him to come home always accepting him back with big warm arms even though she had caught him multiple times and it just pisses me off so much.

It pisses me off that he cheats on her

It pisses me off that she knows and gets hurt by it but always forgives him acting like we are a happy family when I hear her cry at night.

The dinner was awkward after that us both knowing what dad was doing why he wasn't answering her calls it's just sad I hurt for her she deserves better. After dinner I helped clean up and excused myself to my room I was still boiling with the anger I threw my bag down on the ground.

"Fuck this" I spat laying down on my bed staring at my ceiling

People wonder why I don't do relationships I don't have a prime example of what love is my parents are a mess and messed me up so bad I don't think I will ever want a relationship or love because to me love doesn't exist I don't even know what is it supposed to feel like.

I just go through life girl after girl and hook up after hook up not caring about names or faces just wanting to get off to try and feel something with somebody a spark anything at all.

If love exists at all it isn't for me

Yoongi POV

"Stop making heart eyes at him," Jin said snapping me up out of my daydream I sit up straight blinking at Jin.

"I wasn't doing anything eyes at anyone" I defended myself chewing on my pizza aggressively I'm kinda aggravated just a bit It's been a week since the bathroom sexcapades and so for nothing from Jimin he goes back to ignoring me we even have a class together and he doesn't notice me...

Why won't he just see me...

I looked back over at his table he has so many friends they were talking and laughing while Jin and I sat by the trash cans the hierarchy in this school is ridiculous.

"Yoongi I know that face it's the same face you make when you look at Tom Holland when he is Spider-Man," he said I scoffed

"Excuse you don't bring Tom into this" I huffed picking at my pizza crust then I looked back at Jimin's as a girl come up to him a cheerleader in a white and blue uniform he smiled at her then I see her plop down on his lap playing with his earring her high ponytail swinging around as she talked to him.