One True Love

Chapter 9

Connor's POV

We arrived home after our shopping spree, thanks to Jenn. I open the door to my house and find the boys I left there being stupid, at least they didn't break anything though so I guess it's ok.

"I'm home!" I say but the boys were too busy being stupid to hear me.

"Aye!" I yell, getting the attention of the boys.

"What?" Jc asks.

"I'm home! Help me put away my stuff, please."

"I'll help." Says Ricky and follows me into my Bedroom.

After me and Ricky got done putting away all my new stuff I go back into the living room.

"So how was Jenn's Surprise?" Trevor asks.

"Well, if you saw how many bags I had, I guess you could say that I had fun. What were you guys doing while we were gone?" I say.

"Oh, umm you know, boy stuff." Trevor says.

"Trevor?" I say.

"Yea?"

"Did something happen that you don't want to tell me? You always get defensive when you're hiding something from me." I say.

"Well, ummm."

"Come on, Trevor. You can tell me."

"It's just..."

"Tyler came over while you were gone." Kian says.

"Shit." Says Connor's conscience that I'm going to name Bob.

"Oh, he did?" I say nonchalantly.

"Yea, we told him you weren't here, but he said to give you this letter that he wrote in case you didn't want to talk to him." Says Jc.

"God dammit." Says Bob.

"Oh, Okay." I say, still trying to keep my cool. "Well I'm going to my room to film a video. Thanks for coming over guys. I appreciate it."

"No problem, dude." Ricky says.

After that, Jenn and the boys gather there things and leave, I go to my room.

I close my door and fall onto my bed and just think.

Connor's conscience/ Bob's P.O.V:

What even is my life right now? I feel like nothing that's been happening lately has been going the right way and I just don't know what to do anymore. First, I came out the whole world, then Ricky made me tell Tyler I had a crush on him, being like "You should tell him, what's the worst that could happen?" Well I don't know, me spilling my guts out to him and him rejecting me then running away like I'm a monster. And then Tyler has the nerve to show up at my house when I'm trying to recover and he thinks everything will be okay.

Yea, sure, break my heart and then come back a day later and everything is going to fine. Who does that? Who tells somebody else that you like somebody and then when that somebody comes up to you and says that they have a crush on you, you just abandoned them?! I don't understand his logic, and he's adding on to the stress I've been having with the video and these feelings, what am I suppose to do! I've run out of ideas! How do you deal with a boy who says they love you then rejects them?!

I thought I knew everything about relationships and how to handle one. but now I feel like I know nothing. I don't even think I know myself anymore. Who am I? What have I become? I can't think anymore, he's hurting me more than he knows. He's destroying me. I'm breaking. Before you know it, I would be able to be put back together.