1.It is very exhausting
2. it is really time consuming
3.i feel disgusting and gross after it
4.i feel like shit and weak and full of pain after it
5.i feel guilty after it
6.my cheeks and face will puff up and be swollen
7.my body will be bloated and in pain for days
8.it is expensive to buy binge foods
9.it is draining you mentally and physically
10.i am destroying my body with it
11.i am destroying my life with it
12.I am putting myself up for dangerous health risks and diseases
13.it is not worth the guilt shame money and disgust and feeling of failure
14. you can eat some sweets and not gain weight
15.you dont have to starve even to reach 44kg
16. you have to clean up after it because it is super gross
17.i will not lose weight but keep being in a lose gain cycle and NEVER ACHIEVE my gw like this
18. you will never lose weight like this
19. you could die from this
20. you want to have a life
21. you want to fee good in your body and clothes
22.you want to look like your idols
23. do it for your future
24. for your desire to lose weight and be skinny
25. for your life with your partner
26.for everyone that thinks you are a dissapointment because you always keep on failing again and will never reach your goal
27.for getting healthy anf find motivation in life again
28. for proving you can lose weight
29. for people to admire you
30.for yourself
My parents used to tell me i will never lose weight, cause i lose and then gain again bc i reach a certain weight and then end up binging. I only failed 2 times in total and i will not give up. As long as its not a week into binging again my progress is not lost.
You can fucking do this. You got this. You will be super skinny. You will lose weight. You are strong
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My ED Diary- A Battle continues
RandomI am here to share my story of how i will lose weight with modified kpop diets, trying to finally get skinny after years of battling bulimia and getting my skinny body goals. I in no way promote eating disorders! This is just to document my progress...