NEVER LOVE AGAIN - An Eminem story

Chapter 66

3 days after the premiere of 'Karma', me and Marshall, along with his family, were boarding his private jet with the destination being London. Marshall's daughters were super excited to spent Christmas abroad, Alaina and her boyfriend were the only ones that couldn't come because they already had plans with his parents.

Your dress was gorgeous Ana! And it complemented you perfectly! Hailie said while they showed me article about the movie.

Thank you, it means a lot coming from such a well-dressed person like you! Hailie shrugged me off.

Have the ladies stopped with the conversation 'bout clothes and makeup!? Marshall asked from the sit beside me. Don't forget that we exist! He pointed between him and Hailie's boyfriend.

We're complimenting your girlfriend! Whitney fired. You should do the same!

I've spent the last 11 months drooling over her! He defended himself. Either way, I already gave her my movie review that night... Marshall winked at me.

MARSHALL!

Ew dad! The girls said in unison. Marshall laughed.

We landed in Heathrow later that day and I rented a car for us to drive into for my dad's house. After an hour drive, we arrived.

Bean!! My father said as soon as I got off the car. We hugged. I've missed you!

I've missed you too dad!! I hugged him tight.

So... I began, pulling out the hug. You've already met Marshall and Whitney!

Hello Roger! Marshall shook my dad's hand and Whitney waved.

And this is Hailie, also Marshall's daughter, and Evan, her boyfriend! I introduced them.

It's a pleasure to meet you! Hailie said.

It's a pleasure for me, receiving you all in my home! My dad shook Evan's hand.

Yes, thanks again for letting us stay! Marshall spoke to my father.

No need to thank me son, I'm glad everyone gets to spent the holidays in family! Dad clapped his hands and rubbed them. What about a warm brew, uh?

I'd love that! He stuck his arm out for me to grab and we made our way inside.

24th December 2020

All my siblings and Marshall's family were getting along really well, and the house was full of joy and happiness. I excused myself from the dinner table to go to the bathroom.

You 'aight? I heard as soon as I left the restroom.

Yes... I chuckled at Marshall worries. Why wouldn't I be?

I dunno... Ya could be feeling overwhelmed wit everyone being here! He caressed my arm.

I'm not, I enjoy seeing everybody hitting off! I tilted my head a bit. Are you feeling overwhelmed!? I emphasised the word 'you'.

He shrugged. A little...

Do you regret bringing your family? I hugged loosely Marshall's torso with one arm.

No! Of course not! He reassured me. It's just...

What?

He sighted. Having everyone like this together and seeing your family so close wit one another... Made me feel a little defeated... Marshall tried to hide his face.

Defeated!? What are you talking about luv!? I grabbed his hand and guided him to my childhood room so we could talk more privately.

It's ridiculous... Never mind! He tried to leave the room.

No! I grabbed his arm. Talk to me... He sighted and sat on my bed, joining me.

I always wanted what yo' dad has... A huge family all together to celebrate the holidays...

You have a huge family... I caressed his hand.

A huge broken family... I want to grow old with someone I love and take care of our grandkids...

And you will do that!

How Ana? Ya don't want to marry or have kids! He exploded.

This again? I looked at him serious. I thought you had swear off marriage anyway!

You made me second thought that! He pointed at me and got up. With yo' perfect self and yo' perfect family...

I didn't know what to say.

I know this's silly but... Marshall sighted loudly. I want to marry ya okay!... I want the world to know that yo' mine! He paced around the room. I was left with my mouth open.

Marshall, I love you b-

But? He glanced at me.

But I don't want a marriage... I don't like the idea of it! I remained seated while Marshall walked miles across my room.

Why!? Because yo' last marriage was horrible!?

I nodded without couldn't speak a word.

My last marriage was horrible too and here I am proposing! He sat again on the bed.

Y-You're proposing? I felt dizzy.

I guess!

I felt really lightheaded and wanted to throw up.

Yo're okay!? He held my hand.

I looked into his eyes and my mouth dried up.

We-We already live like a married couple... Why do you want to sign a paper!? I managed to say.

I dunno... He shrugged. I guess because it's how things are done!

Marshall, I want to spent my days with you, but I can't marry you... I physically can't! This sounds fucking cliché but, it's not you! I'm the damaged one... I'm sure you'd be an amazing husband but... A knot formed in my throat. I can't marry you! It was a bad experience for me, and I don't want to relive it!

Are ya saying ya don't want to marry me because ya're afraid I'll beat you!? He frowned offended.

No! Further from that! I held his hand tight. Marriage gives me bad memories and throws me in a pit of sadness... I spent 3 years erasing that year of hell and I don't this to triggered it...

Marshall's facial expressions softened.

I'm sorry that I can't be able to fulfil your dream... I looked to the floor.

Marshall made my head face his with his hand on my cheek.

It's okay... I have the rest of my life to create new dreams wit ya!

I smiled and we rested our foreheads against each other.