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Ok so this isn't gonna be a chapter but rather a rant/idk whut. So my friend went off somewhere and I was worried that she killed herself. I left the school but my friend said she was ok. You probably think I'm pretty stupid but she's my one of my best friends. She is stronger than me and if she can't handle all the stress out upon her I can't either. So I told my boyfriend (South Korea) and he was worried about both me and silent. He told me that we all will miss me and he would be sad. He wanted me to throw away every single needle that I had (I buried it XD). I was literally crying all last night because no boy has given me this much support before. He told me he did it because I'm his girlfriend and it would be rude if I didn't. I honestly don't get much support in life because I don't tell anyone. Yeah people say why didn't u tell me but the reason is people react differently. I used to be bullied in elementary school from 3rd grade to 5th grade. If I knew what cutting was when I was that age, I don't think I'd still be alive. I've been rejected twice by the people I thought I liked. I tried to kill myself once. I was sure that I'd definitely kill myself in February but that's when my boyfriend told me that he liked me. When I told him about my depression, he didn't push me away like other people, he wanted to know everything. Sometimes when he talks to me I think he glances at my wrist to see if I cut or not. I broke down yesterday. Once again, I've never seen anyone be this opening or devoted to me anywhere (meaning before middle school XD). I just want to thank everyone for the support and stuff like this. I'm also sick so I'll try to be on soon! XD