a letter to the boy i became obsessed with
friday, february 18, 2022
Dear (____)
I always thought love was a scary thing. I became so infatuated with you and your presence. Something about you made me feel odd, and I wanted to explore that feeling. I wanted to know every part of you, pick apart your every thought and place myself inside. I wanted to feel as though you and I were the same. I wanted to feel as if you had felt the same. I wasn't in love with you though.
I tried to do a love spell while I was highly emotional and it backfired. I tried to go against your free will, and I still hold a lot of regret for even attempting to use magick as a means of controlling someone else.
It isn't an excuse, but my anti-depressants don't go too well with alcohol, and it doesn't help that that Christopher guy did what he did. I'm probably just trying to shift the blame, but damn, I never thought I would try to harm you in any way. Instead you heard from everyone else that I tried to kill you for talking to another girl while we were hanging out.
I don't know what the hell I can do in all honesty. I can't reverse time and undo what happened. But I wish we could talk so I could apologize to your face about everything that happened.
from, me
YOU ARE READING
✧~= unfinished thoughts =~✧
Fanfiction"some people are just pure magic. that's all." random ideas that come to me. ones that are too short to turn into a book some of them will probably be kinda,, out there? i guess- idk, a lot of my ideas r kinda strange so read w caution 737
