Tutorial for Marriage

Page 21

Selena's Sentiment

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"Good morning, ho." pilit na ngiti na bati ko nang makita ko si Mang Kanor, hardinero namin, na may kasamang isang lalaki.

Pumunta lang ako dito para maiwasan si Blagden at mataguan, he's so consistent on saying sorry. But no, he used me and I will not act like a fragile wall because of his soft voice. Not again, never.

That night was the worst night of my life. Bumaba kami para magpanggap na masaya sa announcement ng magulang namin, gusto kong humindi because I was so hurt but seeing my parents' smile on their faces hurts me more dahil ito lang yung kaya kong ibigay na kapalit sa lahat ng ginawa at sinakripsyo nila sa akin. But I am so hurt that they planned everything that happened for the past four months.

I can't leave the house. Magtataka ang mga magulang namin, and 2 months nalang bago ang bar exam, and my parents asked Blagden to help me on my review. Blagden said yes, of course, para mas lalo pa akong mahulog sakaniya. But duh, never again.

"Magandang umaga, Ma'am Selena." napatingin ako kay Mang Kanor. Humarap rin yung nasa tabi niyang lalaki, oh, kaedad ko, I think and moreno siya, jet black hair na nakatali pa ng half pony since nasa may batok niya na yata yung haba. Purong Pilipino yung dugo, I assume.

Ngumiti ako. "Anak ko nga po pala. Pasensya na po hindi ko nasabi kagabi, mukhang may problema po kayo ni Sir Dracarus." I felt a pang in my chest when I heard his name.

"Si Kairo nga po pala, panganay ko po. Magiging hardinero na rin po siya rito." pagpapakilala niya dito.

Lumipat yung tingin ko kay Kairo na nakatingin sa akin at nakangiti. He extended his hand. "Mas maganda ka po pala sa personal, Ma'am Selena."

I smiled dahil wala namang masama sa sinabi niya. Inabot ko yung kamay niya. "Bolero. Enjoy your stay here." I replied.

Bibitawan ko na sana yung kamay niya nang may naglakad papunta sa tabi ko at tumikhim. The same pain went inside of me again when I heard his voice. Binitawan ni Kairo yung kamay ko and nagulat ako dahil at the same time, Blagden put his hands on my waist again.

Hindi ko siya tinitignan at pilit na lumalayo sakaniya but hinihila niya ako palapit. "Good morning. Who are you?" seryoso niyang tanong.

Matapang namang sinalubong ni Kairo yung titig ni Blagden. "Kairo, ho. Bagong hardinero." magalang na sagot nito.

Tumango naman si Blagden. "Welcome." ngumiti ito kay Mang Kanor. "Kindly excuse me and my fiancé." nagulat kami dahil sa sinabi nito saka iginiya ako pabalik sa bahay.

Nang makapasok kami ay itinulak ko siya. Akala ko ay gulat ang magiging reaction niya but all I saw on his face was sadness, like he's expecting my reaction. But hindi ako natibag sa pagiging malungkot niya. In the first place, he's the reason for all of this.

"Anong ginagawa mo?! What?! Fiancé?! You used me, gago!" malakas na boses na sabi ko.

He bit his lower lip. "I'm sorry, I was...jealous." he answered sadly. "He was holding your hand... I can't h-help i---"

"Nagseselos ka ha?!" tanong ko. "Hoy! Gumising ka. Bakit ka magseselos? May tayo ba?" deretsyong tanong ko.