Tutorial for Marriage

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Selena's Sentiment

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Blagden didn't come home for the past two days, making us all worried. Wala rin siyang tawag or text kay Ryle, wala rin akong balita kina mom and dad. Sabi ng mga guards na nagbabantay sa labas, sinabihan sila ni Blagden na 'wag akong palabasin.

This whole situation is making me frustrated. I know that they all want my safety against Trevor but I want to have a life, too. Kahit mall lang or maglakad lakad sa labas, bawak ako. I still need to unwind lalo na at stressed ako dahil ang yung bar exam will be next week na. Gosh, there people are so killjoy.

"Where the fuck is that guy, I can't track his phone." rinig kong sabi ni Ryle na nakaupo sa couch at nakatutok sa laptop niya.

Kairo's busy doing garden things with his father while Fatima is at her room studying. Habang ako, aligaga at walang magawa, nag aalala lang sa taong dapat hindi ko na alalahanin.

"Ano bang nangyari bago siya umalis?" Ryle asked out of the blue.

Naalala ko yung nangyari nang two days ago, the question and his answer. I looked at Ryle na nakatitig sa akin habang hinihintay yung sagot ko. "W-Wala." I stuttered.

Nagkibit balikat lang 'to. Hindi niya pinaniwalaan yung sagot ko but he chose to be silent. Walang nagsalita sa amin, the only noise that can be heard now from the living room is his fingers tappping the keyboard. Nagulat ako when he suddenly spoke.

"There you are!" sabi niya.

Agad akong lumapit, I saw the map of the whole Cauayan, Isabela. The red dot is moving and may nakalabel na Dracarus Stevensons sa tabi nito. "Why is he going to Stevensons Univeristy?" Ryle asked. Tinignan ko ulit ang rota ng pulang tuldok, at papunta nga 'yon sa Stevensons.

Agad naman kaming naalarma ni Ryle. Isinara niya yung laptop at tumingin sa akin. "I will wait for you sa kotse." he said at tumayo na. I just nodded at tumakbo papunta sa taas. Dederetsyo sana ako sa kwarto ko but I noticed that Blagden's door was slightly opened, sumilip ako at wala namang tao sa loob, maliban sa saradong kurtina at magulong kama.

Siguro hindi naman magagalit si Ryle kung magtatagal ako ng kaunti, I just want to get inside in my dragon's room again. It is dark, he curtain is black at nakatakip pa 'yon. I walked slowly, tingnan ko isa isa ang nga picture frames kahit na nakita ko naman na 'yon noon.

Nandito na ako ngayon sa gilid ng kama niya. Bumaba yung tingin ko sa may bed side table niya. Kumunot ang noo ko nang may nakitang may libro roon. It has a sticky note with my name written on it. I sat on his bed at kinuha 'yon. Sa may pinakababa, may nakasulat roon sa napakaliit na mga letra.

''520."

Napasinghap ako. Agad kong binuklat yung libro papunta sa pahinang sinabi niya. I don't know kung bakit ko gustong umiyak nang may  nakita akong nakaipit na papel roon, nakatiklop ito ng tatlo. Kinuha ko 'yon at ibinaba yung libro.

My Dearest Alair,

I love you too. I am sorry for not being able to say that to you last time, I was so weak... Forgive me.

I know now that you are reading this, I am not with you anymore. I left because I can't bear to see you smiling with Kairo, it hurts so much that I want to die. I want to say sorry for breaking your trust, I am sorry for making you think that I used you but Alair, believe me, using you or hurting you will never be a part of my vocabulary. I am sorry for lying to you, but I am doing this for you. I am sorry for ignoring you, I am really sorry for being weak for us. But seeing you happy, seeing you smiling, seeing you getting better are enough for me to fight for this, for us.