divergent-no war- Fourtris

chapter 4

Tris POV:

I open my eyes to see Tobias's apartment and smile a little. I pick my own apartment in a few days and also my job. I know I want to be a faction ambassador, but I dont know if I want to live with Christina or Tobias, or just by myself. Its not the worst decision to make, any option would lead me to be happy.
Tobias walks through the door with two muffins in his hands. I sit up to look at him and he hands me the muffin, sitting next to me.

Once I finish breakfast I take his hoodie off and go to find Christina. Shes talking to Will and Uriah (who looks like hell).
"Tris!, where did you go yesterday?" She leans in very close so no one can hear her except me and says, "with four? Doing a little addition?" I stamp on her toes and she makes an odd noise
"What was that for!" will exclaims
"No, nothing like that," I say and Chris looks disappointed while will and uriah looks extremely confused.
 

A while later and Tobias finds me and kisses my head everyone -apart from chris- looks confused.
"Um, okay, can I just say somthing,"  uriah clears his throat, "WHAT!?"
I feel Tobias tense beside me. He walks up to them and leans in close and says in his low voice "you saw nothing, got it," and they nod. I find it funny that he can scare them like that.

Tobias POV:

I stare into Uriah's eyes. Its like a power, how i can intimidate my ex-initiates.
I turn back, towards Tris and she's smiling.
"I'll be going now," I say and her eyes follows me out the door. Too bad Uriah is shouting again, "What?! No seriously Christina what is happening?!! He just," and he guestures to his head.
"Your as bad as the Candor!" I call after him.

Its been about two weeks since uriah and Will saw me kiss her and many questions (most from uriah) were asked and I answered none.

I want to surprise Tris, we've never really been or a proper date, I wouldn't call showing her my trauma and worst fears a date. So I'm taking her to the train tracks. I remember the last time we were on the train together, I might have gone too far, but I think it was worth it.
"Where are we going?" Tris says behind me and I realise I've sped up quite a bit. I stop and wait for her. She stops infront of me and i take this opportunity to kiss her. There aren't any cameras aroud but still I take a look round before I fit my mouth to hers.
"Aren't we going somewhere?" She says into my ear.
I take her hand and lace my fingers through hers. I can tell shes wary about touching people, I understand why. In abnigation if you held hands you were life partners and had to be married, it was seen as somthing you would do only in the privacy of your home.
Im wary of it too and I think she knows. She adjusts her grip every so often and I keep a steady grasp.
Her hands soft and small but it hurts when she punches or squeezes me. My hands are rough in places from grabbing too many handles on too many moving trains and shooting too many guns.
We finally get to the tracks and we wait. She clings to my arm and leans on me. I feel like im a statue not moving, like im an object, but what can i do? Im hopeless at this.
The train arrives and I start to jog to catch it and Tris follows behind.
Its become natural, an instinct, I dont have to think, I just reach for the handle and jump into the penultimate carriage. Tris is jogging with ease behind but still I reach my hand out to her and pull her in.
This feels familiar, standing with Tris on a moving train, touching the small of her back while she rests her hands on my shoulders.
Shes pale and small, and by standards shes not pretty. But she is shes beutiful and shes mine. I move closer to kiss her head but she moves so I kiss her lips instead.
Like last time, we sit and I kiss her, holding her side with one hand and her face in the other. We have more time now. She runs her hands through my hair and when i kiss her jaw she moves her hands down to my back. I remove my hand from her rib cage and lift my shirt so shes touching my bare skin and i let it fall back over her hands. Shes cold, but her lips aren't, they're warm, soft.
"Tobias," she says my name quietly and my neck suddenly feels warm.
"Yes?" I say thinking she wants to talk or to stop.
She dosnt relpy just kisses me more and she 'comes alive', moving her hands and kissing me harder. I return these actions but Im more careful, I dont want to make her uncomfortable or scared, Thats the last thing I want.
I feel my self control sliping away. I move my hands to her hips and surprisingly she doesn't tense up. I dont want to do anything too stupid but yet I find myself sitting astride Tris and shes leaning her on the wall still kissing me, letting her hands explore my back and chest. Once i kiss her again she slows it down to savour it and im grateful for this because if not i might have done something even more stupid. I move and sit next to her,
"You look good," I say casually and she blushes untill shes red. She runs her hand through her hair and replies.
"I dont know why you think that, I dont even understand why you like me. I mean, look at yourself, you shouldnt be with me. I know I said this before but im not pretty, or beautiful in anyway. I just don't understand." When she finished i felt like she was playing along. Does she really not believe I love her. No, she does, she doesn't understand why.
"Tris, why would you say that?" The sentence sounds cold and i didn't mean it to. "You are, you are pretty and beautiful and lovable. Look at me," she doesn't so I move my hand to her chin and move her head to look me dead in the eyes. "Thats not what matters though, you deadly smart, brave, selfless and kind, everything I aspire to be. Tris you're everything to me. Dont doubt my love for you."
I want to kiss her but i dont. I dont understand why she thinks like that. Tris then leans her head on my sholder "Sorry," she mutters and I can only just hear it.

Forty minutes pass and its time to get off. Were in a feild full of tall grass near the fence.
"What are we doing?" Tris asks and she sounds wary, on edge.
"Don't worry were not leaving,"
I thought we could sneak into amity, I remember (i was 9 or 8 at the time) i was allowed to go to amity with the other abnigation to help. I probably saw tris that day, I saw her often, in hallways or walking home.
We jog up to the fence to greet shauna. She looks confused but i remind her she owes me and so we get through.
Time flys by. We run through the trees, climbing, kissing, talking and overall being a couple.
We climb up a tree, its not too tall but tall enough that when im at the top if I fell I'd get injured. She finds a sturdy branch and shuffles allong to make room for me. I have an apple that i picked off a tree and tris takes it from my hands and bites it.
"What!?" I say grinning trying to pretend to be offended. I steal it back and bite next to where she did. "Get your own," I say.
"But there all the way down there," she wines,and i laugh, passing her the apple. she takes a second bite. As she swallows she shuffles closer to me and I bring my arm round, resting on her hip. Tris and I dont touch carelessly, every touch feels like energy every area that we meet feels alive. And I thought it would change after we started dating. But no, its the abnigation in us telling us to stop, to be careful. And we will be careful but we won't stop. Tris kisses me softly taking my face in her hands, she then says against my lips
"I love you, Tobias,"