I always manage to mess things up, in one way or another.
I met this guys , he was nice to me and I honestly wanted to just stay friends.
He then just started saying all this lovey dovey shit and I went with the flow.
I should've just said no.
He then asked me to be his girlfriend.
I literally said no.
After a week he started calling me his girlfriend and (his wife).
He just assumed we were dating and I didn't deny it. I was alright I really didn't care.
I just liked the attention he gave me.
A week after that he said " I did something really bad and I feel guilty". I asked him what it is and he said don't worry about it.
A few days later he said that he has a girlfriend..
That was the biggest red flag and I should've just left but since I didn't have any feelings for him I just stayed and he broke up with her, he said that he doesn't love her anymore and that they don't work out.
I actually started to get attached.
Not to him, but to the attention he gave me.
And I felt nothing for him .
It's been a while , really since I felt anything for anyone so I wasn't really surprised.
We continued and then we eventually started to send nudes and stuff.
I talked to him , not because I loved him but I loved the attention he gave me , he gave me so much attention in everyway possible.
He called me smart , hot and beautiful.
He said I make him happy.
He really does make me happy or should I say his attention really makes me happy.
I am the villan here.
He is the vitcim.
Yet I still find a way to blame him.
He started to not be interested in my normal talking . He only likes to talk about sex.
I guess he's starting to feel the same way.
But I wonder why while I can't express any affection .
The most i said to him was "you have a nice voice".
And he's still Interested in me. Somehow.
He just likes how I look.
I have big thighs and nice curves .
I wish I was mentally stable though.
But I am not.
And I'm aware.
