Honestly idek anymore.
He said he's inlove with me but we didn't date . Yet atleast.
I sent him picture and he likes it and I like it I just wanna keep that way. Friends with benefits typa thingy.
But then there's another girl.
There's always another girl.
He said that he's gonna choose between me and her.
He says that I'm too good for him which is true.
I'm only gonna date him to crush him and to scar him for life.
I fucking despise him.
He cheated on me he lied to me he treated me like shit.
And I fucking still want him somehow.
But I still hate him with all my heart. Somehow..
Idek how I feel it just feels wrong and I fucking hate this he's the most complicated thing ever.
And I'm so fucking tired I wish I could just move on but he gives me the attention my parents never gave me and it makes me feel amazing.
And he's gonna cheat again. I just know it.
Also the other girl is like no she's unfunny and she's just makeup I'm definitely better in alot of different ways.
