Days Like This. | D.L.

9.

We slid from the black Escalade into the back side of the Maternity ward. After walking in the doors, we were immediately shown into a private room, and told that the doctor would be in soon.

"Are you nervous?" I asked him and he looked over at me and shook his head.

"No, there isn't a need to be yet." He hesitated. "Okay yeah, I'm a little bit nervous."

I sat on the table and he stood between my legs and took my hands. "You don't need to worry love, the doctor will let us know if there is something wrong. We are in the best possible place to be in case of an emergency."

"Jesse. But what if there is something is wrong? Last time we were here there was." I asked him, anxiety running through my vains and getting the best of me.

"Then we will get through it together baby." He kissed my hand when Dr. Montgomery came into the room.

"Hi Demi, how are we feeling?" She asked as she washed her hands.

"A little nervous honestly." I confessed to her, and playing with my wedding ring.

"Well it's definitely understandable. Have you had any symptoms, and how have you been feeling physically?" She asked as she sat next in front of me in a rolly chair.

"The morning sickness isn't horrible but there are days that it is bad." I explained to her.

"If it gets you the point where you can't keep anything down, I think it would be best to give you something. But for now as long as you are getting nutrients, I think we should just see if it gets any better." I nodded and she continued. "How about we get started?" She asked and I nodded.

I laid back on the table and lifted my shirt and unbuttoned my pants. She squirted the jell on my abdomen before using a doppler to spread it around.

I looked at Jesse, hoping that just seeing him would calm my nerves. He smiled at me before something caught our attention.

"Is that?" I asked, tears welling up in my eyes as I looked over at Addison.

"The heartbeat. Looks like we have a healthy little one here with us." She said and I couldn't hold back the tears in my eyes.

Jesse leaned down and kissed me, and it was then when I realized that he was crying too.

"If you look up here, this little blob is your baby. They don't look like much, since you are measuring at around 8 weeks and 4 days. If you look closely you can see this flicker, that's the heartbeat, and the baby starting to form." She explained to me.

We had found out 3 weeks ago, and decided to keep it to ourselves until the second trimester. I especially wanted to make sure Phil didn't find out yet, so at the meeting a few days ago I tried my best to act normal despite my sickness.

I had an app on my phone that told me how big the baby was, which was now the size of a raspberry, and I had used it with Peyton. I was shocked when I started showing a few days ago even when my bump was barely noticeable, but read up on it and learned that you start showing sooner in your second pregnancy because your body has already stretched out.

Jesse seems to have totally gotten used to the fact that we are having a baby, and that our lives are changing forever. But me, it has been really difficult. I have had a hard time believing it's true and that I am creating another life. 

But seeing my baby for the first time, and hearing their heartbeat, made it real. Jesse and I were going to have a baby, and I couldn't have been more excited yet terrified.

The rest of the appointment went smoothly, and it was over before we knew it. We headed over to my parents house for lunch like planned, and the both of us couldn't stop smiling.

I turned on the radio and flipped through the stations until I found one. Turning it up, I started singing along, letting the wind blow through my hair because of the partially rolled down window.

Jesse looked over at me, love written all over his face making me blush. He started singing along, making me giggle. Even though he isn't the best singer, his voice made me fall in love with him all over again.

We pulled up to the house and shut off the car before looking at eachother again. "I love you baby."

"I love you too J." I leaned up and kissed him before we went up to the door. I knocked a few times before I heard my mom tell my dad that we were here and hurry to the door.

"Demi! How are you sweetie?" She asked as she welcomed us inside and wrapped me in a hug.

"I've been good, how are you?" I asked as we slipped off our shoes and made our way outside where my dad was grilling.

"I'm good now that all my babies are here!" She said and I looked at her confused since Dallas was in Texas for the month coaching acting, and Madison was at Chapman and didn't make it home very often.

She laughed and pointed to where I saw my sisters rushing over to me. I almost started crying and grabbed them both into a tight hug. "Oh my god! You guys!" I took a few deep breaths as we pulled away to push away my emotions. "You said you weren't coming!"

"I know, we lied. Sorry D." Madi said as she laughed and hugged me again.

After she pulled away, Dallas gave me another hug. Maybe it was the fact that she knew about both of my other pregnancies or that she is my older sister, I wanted to tell her the news so badly.

But I pushed it away for as long as I could, wanting to make it to the second trimester so it would be less likely for something to happen.