Sweet N' Salty

A/N: Explaining Myself

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My dear, lovely readers. How are you all on this fine (whenever you're reading this) day?

Ok, so I wanna say sorry for the angst in my past couple of chapters. That's was never my intention when planning this book. And that's what it started turning into.

I actually created a reader x akaashi angst (that I still need to actually work on cuz I get easily distracted) to get all my angst out. But then I saw this book was doing the best out of all my world and felt the need to keep working on it when my inspiration was up. Which led to spamming drafts and eventually publishing said drafts.

I had originally thought this out as fluff with the occasional panic attacks in more public settings...
But then I started having a hard time with my own mom and vented my mental/verbal/emotional/psychological abuse within this book.

Not my original intention, but it happened.
I apologize deeply for doing that, it wasn't what I wanted to do at all but it happened.
Please forgive me for probably ruining this fic.

Of course, I didn't mean for there to be as much trauma or ptsd situations as there currently are.
But again, I'm venting my own issues into this and feel like I'm destroying what was once supposed to be a decent plot.

Another thing:
The reader is supposed to become emotionally attached to certain people very quickly when they show signs of truly caring about them and attempt to help the reader when they head to a dark place. Hence why when Shirabu and Akaashi start pushing them away, they go into a state of depression and refuse to eat.

This again was based off things I do. I tend to have trust issues then cling to people that even try being friends with me. I also constantly feel sick when I feel like life isn't good at the moment and tend to skip meals. And I usually only eat about once a day (sometimes twice depending on where I am, what's being served, and how I'm feeling physically and mentally).

I didn't mean to put this much of myself (the bad parts) into any stories that didn't have the original purpose of being angst.

And even though the in person meetings between the reader and Shirabu seemed more key as the plot progressed, this story was meant to be a chatfic. So, I still make sure to at least try to add the texting concept into each part (and I believe I've failed to do so, I'm feeling like I forgot in at least one part but don't wanna go back and look through all of them).

Even though I'm highly against it irl, I decided that the confession between the reader and Shirabu had to be through text to keep the original integrity of the story.

I had originally thought of having the reader wait for the response.
But quickly abandoned it to continue with the moping part of the reader. I haven't fully decided on what to do with the whole Akaashi/Bokuto/Reader situation yet.

But my plans are to have Shirabu see the confession and say something in the gc after a few weeks (maybe a month) has passed since the party. I was thinking of having the reader drop out of school and just live at home and earn money online (nothing perverted cuz I don't condone porn of any sorts), something more like writing online or something where reader doesn't have to reveal their face or voice. They'll completely distance themselves from everything, including Shirabu and Bokuto.

Well... that's all I got so far.
I been working so hard in whatever free time I manage to get between school and dealing with family. I think I've been doing well with working on my books (mainly this one) and making sure to update semi-regularly.
Or just spam. I'm great with spamming multiple parts all at once. I work on drafts 24/7 then just... spam everything.

My brain... and maybe heart too... just aren't fully in anything much anymore. But writing has been making me feel better (only with continuing to write, nothing else that's unrelated to this app).

I just need to plan things out and jot things down. I'll do my best to update multiple times throughout the week, but I make no promises.

As always, thank you for reading and supporting me and my work(s). I appreciate all of you, regardless of how involved you are with me and my works. Please continue to keep reading this book until it's finish, and feel free to check out my other works.
I appreciate any feedback you may have, or just feel free to leave any kind of comment you want.

We're very accepting of all things here. 🤗
Thanks again.
And until next time!