why do I even love him ( michael afton hanahaki au)

chapter 6:friendship

Thursday 30 march 1982 , the school grounds 

michael pov

I arrived at school..I was stressed..I had to find my diary..I really hope that it didn't end up by the wrong person..My hands were shaking as I walked through the gates onto the school ground..I looked around..trying to find a spot I could sit alone..I saw my friends..But what I actually saw broke my heart..Rebecca was with them but she was wearing a mask..A foxy mask.." they replaced me?..." I mumbled..I was so hurt by this..I noticed Simon wasn't there ...he probably was late..It wouldn't be the first time..

I walked away and sat down at one of the trees on the back of the school..I started plugging at the grass..I was looking at the ground..suddenly it became darker..I didn't get the chance to look up before I got pulled up by my shirt..Simon held me by my shirt close to him.." We have to talk in private.." he said..I gulped..I pushed him of me.." what do you want.."I was still hurt that they replaced me..I noticed he wasn't wearing his mask..I could see it in his backpack.." Why did you take of the mask?.." I didn't mean to say that..he looked at me.." well when I saw that bitch was wearing a mask that you are supposed to wear I got mad and took it off..I realized you don't have it easy right now..and that she is trying to replace you.." I was taken back by his words.." ...you don't hate me?.." my voice was quiet..Simon looked shocked.." why would I hate you?..mike..we have to talk about something..You worry me.."I looked at him..I was getting nervous..oh please don't tell me he noticed I act weird..he looked at me worry in his eyes..

Simon sat down on the grass..I sat down besides him..he grabbed his backpack and opened it..I was confused..What was he doing?..he grabbed something out of it..My eyes widened in shock..He was holding my diary..he looked at me ashamed.. " I'm sorry..I- uh..well you lost it so i wanted to give it back..but I was worried about you..so I kinda read it.." I took my diary out of his hands and put it in my backpack..I didn't answer or look at him..He cleared his throat..I sighed.." what did you read?.."I felt so bad..No one was supposed to know..Now people will feel responsible of me.." everything..you need help..and you know it..let me help you..please.." I groaned.." I can live on my own..I don't need help.."He sighed.." mike you know it yourself that you're not going to make it like this!..Please let me help..I don't even want to think about you dying.."He sounded so worried..I felt tears in my eyes..I hurt my friend because I'm stupid.." I'm not going to die.. I'm fine.."He glared at me.." don't lie to me..I'm open to help..if you want it or not I'm coming to your house after school.."He was dead serious..I sighed.." seriously?.." he nodded.." fine.." I went to my class..Simon stayed with me the whole day..I was happy but also felt bad..I'm making my friend worried about me..He's probably only with me out of pity..

I was about to walk home..Simon ran to me with a smile on his face.." Let's go to yours" he sounded happy..Like he really missed me..He started talking about random stuff..It was visible he wanted to make me smile..and It worked..we laughed and joked..we arrived at my house..We got inside the house with a lot of noise..Simon went silent..I looked at where he was looking..My dad was glaring at us..I smiled nervously.." heyyyyyyy father" I laughed nervously..He didn't look amused.. " I didn't allow you to bring people over.."He was pissed..he doesn't like unexpected visitors..Simon got in front of me..he cleared his throat.." mr Afton, do you love your son?.." I coughed..that was unexpected..My dad looked surprised..He looked at me and then at Simon.." yes I do? why?..Is something going on?.." He looked at us suspiciously.. I coughed.." nothing dad, Simon is being an idiot.." I laughed nervously..dad nodded " so that's what he's called.."Simon gasped dramatically.." how could you forget my name?..Look at my beautiful face.."He was being dramatic..My father scoffed.." whatever don't expect me to give you food.." He walked away..Simon shrugged his shoulders.." that's fine to me..he can't cook anyway"he whispered the last part to me.. We went upstairs to my room..

We were talking on my bed..we had snacks that I hide in my room from my father..I had the window open..I was smoking..I laughed and leaned against the wall with a cigarette in my mouth..Simon laughed slightly but suddenly stared at me.." now let's get serious..How long is it been going on?.." I gulped.." seriously right now ?..It's not important.."He glared at me.." not important?! Michael you're dying!" I covered his mouth with my hands.." keep it quiet..the whole town doesn't need to know.."He rolled his eyes.." why can't you see that you won't make it like this..we need to do something.."He sounded so worried..I scoffed.." do something? What huh? The only way I can make it is if Mark falls in love with me..Let me remind you that he has a girlfriend and is probably straight.." He glared at me as I said those words.." you never know..you are losing hope mike..you can't do that..please just try..I know he has a girlfriend..but compared to you she's nothing.." I laughed at that.." she's a bitch..she is trying to kick me out of the group..what if she knows if I like him? what if she's been talking shit about me to him?..maybe that's why he's ignoring me.." I was mumbling.. Simon grabbed my face with both of his hands.." cut out of it mike! he doesn't ignore you! he's been asking where you were the whole fucking time!..you are betraying yourself..Just give it a chance..I'll help Mark realize what you two could be.."he backed up a little again.." we can't force him.. I'll still die if we do so.."I mumbled.. " just have some hope mike..I'm sure he feels something for you but doesn't want to admit it.."I started laughing at that.." if he did I wouldn't be dying right now..let me remind you..the reason I'm sick is because he doesn't love me..If he loved me I wouldn't be like this.."He sighed.." let's just try..and if it doesn't work..is there anything I can do on your funeral?"He said..I laughed slightly.." I'll write a text you can read.." I joked.." but let's not think about that.." I started a conversation with him about something different..In the late evening Simon went home..we had a plan to get Rebecca away from mark..I was questioning it would work but it's worth a try.. 

I made my stuff ready for school and went to sleep..as I was laying down , i started thinking about mark..My skin was itching but I Ignored it..

It's not a secret anymore

creator note:

This was a filler chapter.

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