why do I even love him ( michael afton hanahaki au)

chapter 10: Are you insane?!

TW!

Monday 3 may 1982, the school grounds

michael pov: 

I just arrived at school..people stared at me..but differently..not the way people used to..they used to be scared of me..I was the leader of the bullies of the school..Now people looked at me..whispering about me..I could hear people laugh at me..It made me upset..my anxiety was rising up..I took the pills from my pocket and put one in my mouth..I promised dad to take them when needed..Some girls laughed at me..Till I heard one of the girls voice..it was so familiar..Rebecca..I gulped..People surrounded me..I was looking around for my friends..only to remember that Fredrick and Simon have an hour later on Monday.. And Mark was nowhere to be seen..and if he was around..he would team up with her not me..I feel like I'm nothing to them anymore..I just wished Simon would come earlier today..

Rebecca and her cheerleader friends surrounded me..Some guys of the football team joined..People watched curious what was about to happen.." what do you need Rebecca?.." my voice was weak..My body in general was weak..I hoped they wouldn't beat me up..I don't think I'll survive..At least I took the pills..I felt calm.. 

Rebecca laughed.." you know what you did..yesterday..with your daddy with you you're so strong huh? but now you're all alone..No friends..cause they left you! hahaha" her group laughed.. my hands started to shake.. " you made my family scared you little shit..you're dad might look scary..But when he's not with you you're nothing..And you look like a clown with those glasses..and what's with the bandage? are you trying to be a mummy?.." she laughed one of her friends joined it..." he looks more like a zombie.." "haha zombie mike" another person said..people laughed.." it looks like the school bully lost his fame..you don't have to act all sad and sick..we all know you fake it to make people feel bad for you..you even went this far to get these ugly ass glasses.." she laughed and grabbed my glasses..She threw them on the floor..I heard the glass crack.." wtf ! those are new!" I try to get my glasses..but she picks them up and pulls them away from me..I can't see anything.." give them back!.." I missed the whole time trying to get them.. Everyone was laughing at me making fun of me..I was starting to lose it..I was breathing heavily..I started shaking..I put my hand in a fist..I might not be able to see my glasses..but I can clearly see her figure.." GIVE THEM BACK YOU STUPID BITCH!!"I swing at her and punched her in the face hardly.. She fell back..everyone gasped..I grabbed my glasses of the ground and put them on..I looked at her..ouch her nose was definitely broken..

I scoffed.." that's your own fault bitch- " I got cut of.." Mike?!" I froze..I know that beautiful voice very well..I gulped..Mark pushed me aside and hugged Rebecca who started crying..I rolled my eyes at her..Mark turned to me ..He looked so mad it scared me.." Mark I can explain-"I could already feel the flowers in my lungs..He glared at me.." then explain it!.."I flinched..he was scaring me.." She-..she was bullying me..she broke my glasses..I couldn't see.." he laughed.." what kind of friend are you mike?..Seriously buying fake glasses to find a reason to beat my girlfriend up?.." he isn't believing me.." but I'm not faking anything.." He got closer to me.." SHUT UP!..you don't wear glasses ! you have a great vision! " I was shaking..everyone was watching.. "but-" I got cut of by a slap in my face.." We're not friends anymore..slut.."Mark picked up Rebecca and kissed her cheek while bringing her to the nurse office..

I stared at the ground..I was still frozen in place..He slapped me..my crush slapped me..My cheek hurts..I started shaking violently..People were whispering and laughing around me..I felt the tears run down my face..as I ran out I could hear people calling me that stupid word..slut..I ran away from school as fast as I could..I was sobbing as I fell down on the side of the road in a field..I was gasping for breathe..he called me that..he called me a slut..He called me that one word everyone calls me because of a rumor Rebecca in the start of the school year..Now everyone will think it's true..because he was my best friend..But he..He betrayed me.. He will never love me..I have no one..I'm nothing..I couldn't think anymore..I was so done..I'm here dying for him to love me..hoping he'll fall for me..but then he betrays me so hard..for a bitch..A girl that is using him..I'm nothing to him.. I'm going to die..So why not make it end earlier?..