Never Again

chapter 19: when will i say, it's over?

At Forths condo.

"Just leave Prae, i don't want to see you" said Forth pushing Prae outside his condo.

"But Phi Forth, you need me now, more than anything"

"I don't need anything...i need to be alone...so just leave"

"No! Stop pushing me Phi, you know that i love you. And i will do everything for you to love me again."

"Are you crazy?"

"Yes i am crazy, crazy inlove with you and you know that"

"Oh come on Prae, stop this drama of yours,you know that  i can't love you again"

"Because of what huh..Phi? Because of that slut Beam?" Said Prae

"Prae, stop" said Forth

"Why? Do you still love him? Do you still want to be with him after what he did to you?"

Forth glares at Prae. "It is not your business Prae, and don't get your expection high, cause you are no difference with Beam. You are thesame actually..both are slut"he said and slam the door.

"Ahhhh...you will regret this Forth...you will regret this..ahhhhh" shouts Prae leaving.

Forth sat on the couch massaging his temple when suddenly the event earlier came to his mind, the face of crying Beam. He did not realize that he shed tears. Deep inside his heart hurt when he saw Beam crying, and all the words he said to Beam cut him deep. But part of his brain told him that he deserve that because he cheated. His thinking distract when his phone rings. It's gulf.

"Hellow Phi"

"Hellow nong, i just wanted to inform you that Beam already resigned from his job." Gulf said and Forth fell silent. Beam resigned. "How will he get the money for everyday living if he resigned" thought Forth

"And he leave a big box here in the shop. He told me to give it back all to you" Gulf continues.

Forth swallowed. "Ok Phi i will go there tomorrow" he said.

"Nong, i hope one day you'll never regret your actions towards Beam" with that, Gulf cut the calls.

Forth stares at his phone. His Phi gulf is the second one who told him that lines, first is Lam. He feel exhausted. His heart is at mix emotion at the moment. And when he sleeps, he dreamt of Beam carrying a baby boy, but when he get near them, Beam and the baby vanished like air. And he woke up with that, cold sweat runs to his body. "Oh god, what's that?" He said when he washed his face at the bathroom facing a mirror.

A week had passed. Forths decided to go to gulfs coffee shop and he picked up the box Beam leave there.

Inside the box was all the things he gave to Beam,. Specially the ring he gave. He noticed that there is a letter inside. He bids his good bye at gulf employee, because that time Gulf is in labor, ready to give birth to Mews child.

Inside the car, Forth reads the letter.

Dear Phi Forth,

I am sorry if i can't personnaly return all these stuff to you. It's just that i have no strength to face you now. I am sorry if i did a mistake, i am sorry if its seems that i cheated on you, but i am not. I know you won't believe me. And i am not planning to do things again to make you believe me. I fed up Phi, i am so tired now. I have no strength at all to fight the man i love if he is the one who keep pushing me outside his life. I am sorry if i insisting that you are the father of my child, maybe you are right, maybe i just got impreganated by someone i whoring around behind your back. But deffinitely its not Phi Sharp. How i wish i can get the full video just to prove that nothing happened between me and Phi Sharp,. But it doesn't matter anymore, right? You already believed that i cheated on you and it seems that i can't do anything to prove my innocence. I am sorry Phi Forth if i caused trouble in your life. I know that you regreted knowing and approaching me, but i am not. Since we were kids i knew that i love you, and it is impossible that someone like you will notice me. And i am lucky because you did noticed me. Thank you for everything Phi, eventhough i got hurt from the words you've thrown at me, i don't have the hearts to get angry or mad at you. I love you Phi Forth, and i will always do. But i think i need to stop now, i give up. I hope youre going to be happy with Prae, now i accept that you two are meant for each other. I promise that i will not disturb you from now on. And i will make it clear that my child is not your child, sorry for mistaking it to be yours. I love you Phi, and good bye.

Love,
Beam

After he reads the letter, a tears fell from his eyes. "Why am i crying?" He murmurs. He went back to the university. There he saw Beam with Phana and kit and with Sharp?

He got pissed off. Why of all people, Beam and Sharp are the one who he will see now. He stays at the car watching them.

"Beam, give this video to Forth. He needs to see this" said Phana

Beam is still silent.

"Where did you get this Phi?" Ask Kit

"I crash at Praes house" said Sharp

"What?" Both Phana and Kit

"Relax nongs, she allowed me" said Sharp

He told what happened. Prae contacted her, Prae was a crying mess because Forth rejects her once again. He ask Sharp to accompany her. When Prae gets drunk, he brings her to her dorm and there he found the videocam Prae use filming him and Beam.

"Oh,.youre so clever Phi"teases phana.

"I told you that i will help Beam right, if not for me this will not happened to him" said Sharp appolegitically.

"It's ok Phi, past is past" said Beam

"That's why you need to let Forth see it" Sharp insisted.

"No use Phi, i already said goodbye to him.. and if he really loves me, he would have let me explained him what happened, if he loves me, he will not easily judged me...right?" Said beam

"But Beam..." said Kit

"No Kit. It's over now.. there's no use of telling him or letting him watch this video. He already made his decision and i already made mine,. I know it will be hard for me and for my baby but i will take it, i will be strong for my baby even with out him" said Beam crying and suddenly Sharp hugs him. Beam cry on Sharp chest.

"I am sorry Nong, i am the one who caused you your heartache. I am so sorry"he said while hugging beam and Phana and Kit just pats Beams shoulder.

At Forths car. He gritted his teeth,.the sight he sees makes his blood boil. "They have the nerve to casually hug in a broad daylight" he said to himself hitting the steering wheel.