Beam got frozen from his spot when he saw Forth, Forth is thesame. They stares each other for awhile and then Forth made his steps towards Beam, but Beam steps backward causing him to bump his back on the fridge. He is now leaning on the fridge and Forth keeps on walking infront of him.
Since he came, Forth really wants to hold Beam, hug him and feel his warmth. But he suppress himself in doing so. But tonight, he can't resist it all, the urge to touch Beam. He extend his hand and try to caress Beams face, but Beam flinched on the touch. And diverted his gaze from Forth to the floor. He is trembling, not in fear but with nervousness. But Forth see it differently, he thought that Beam flinched because he is afraid of Forth, he then remembered what he did to Beam when Beam got hospitalized. He feel pain in his heart and anger to himself. He immediately withdraw his hands.
"I...i'm...sorry" Beam look at Forth and he can see sadness on his eyes that glisten with tears. Before it fall down, Forth immediately turn around and walk away. Beam was speechless, he clearly saw Forths in tears. "Why is he turning around and walk away?" He flinch because he didn't expect Forths sudden reaction. And he is also not ready to be touched by him because he still remembers the day he was hospitalized, in short he grows fears in his heart that Forth had caused. "In time Beam, in time.." He murmurs to himself. He sigh deeply, and decide to not to reheat the milk and grab some bread and walked back in his room.
At Forths room, he cries rivers clenching his chest. He can't breath, his eyes is red. He hate himself, Beam is near...yet so far. He don't know what to do now.
In the morning, they all gathered at the dining table to eat breakfast except fo Forth.
"Lina, did you call Forth to have breakfast?" Ask his mother.
"Ahmm.yes mam, but he said he will take a jogging and eat later" said Lina and his mother just nods.
All day, Beam doesn't have the glimpse of Forth. Cause in reality, Forth avoided Beam, he doesn't want Beam to be feard whenever he is around. It will bad for their baby. But Mrs. Jaturapoom noticed it. That his son avoided Beam.
Until dinner time is ready, his mother is the one who go to Forths room. She knock, and when is no one is answering. He just open the door and come in. He saw his son sitting on the cold floor,leaning on the side of the bed facing the balcony., speechless and motionless. She sit beside his son and she feel pain seeing his sons condition,. Forth looks dishelved., devastated.
"Son...what's wrong?" She ask
"Nothing Mae.." said Forth
"Come on son...you can tell it to Mae." Then Forth make a deep sigh and begun to cry.
"Mae...i don't know what to do.. i miss him Mae, i want to hug him, feel his tummy with our baby inside but i can't" he cry harder vowing his head on his knees.
His mother hug him.. "Shuusss...don't cry nah.. everything will be ok son, everyhthing will be fine between you and Beam"
"No Mae...it won't happen, he is too afraid of me. Last night we bump each other at the kitchen...i can't help myself...i tried to touch him but he flinched, and i am so hurt that the man i love is so afraid of me" he said. "But who's to blame, it's me...right? This is all my fault."
"Shuusss..stop crying nah" his mother hug him.
"Mae, i want to be back at work tomorrow. Atleast when i am away, Beam will be free to roam around the house with seeing me. I am afraid that my presence will give harm to him and to our baby" he said.
"But son..running away is not the proper way to deal with your problem.. just show to Beam that you really regret what you have done to him. You should do everything to earn his trust again...hmmm?"
"But Mae..."
"No buts Forth.. i know Beam still loves you, just prove to him that you love him also, don't surrender nah, we will support you"
"Thank you Mae"
"Ok..come on, let's eat..the food are getting cold"
"Can i sit here for awhile mae?, i will eat dinner later" said Forth and his mother understands him and leave Forth.
At the outside, Beam heard all of it. And when Mrs. Jaturapoom go to the door she see Beam standing there.
"Ow, Beam.." she said and close the door.
"Mae.. i am sorry"
"For what Beam?"
"It is because of me that's why Forth is like that."
She hold beams hand and said. "Beam son, it is not your fault ok? It's just that the two of you is still hurting for what happened in the past..and i hope that..you know...someday you can find in your heart the real forgiveness to Forth." She said and Beam just lowered his head.
"Ok come on, let's eat.. i don't want my grandchild to be starved"
"Ahm... Mae..can...can i bring food to Forth?" He said. "Ahm...can we eat together inside his room?"
Mrs. Jaturapoom smiles widely on what he hears.. "are you sure son?" She asked and Beam nods. "O..ok..i will bring food up here..just wait here ok?" She said chirping with happiness.
"Honey what took you so long? And where is Beam and Forth?" Ask Mr. Jaturapoom.
"Oh honey, you can't believe it. forth did not want to eat then suddenly Beam requested if it's ok if he and Forth can eat together in Forths room.." she said happily.
"Really Mae?" Said Yihwa
"Aha"
"Well what are we waiting for, Phi Lina prepare their food" said Earth.
And they happily prepares the food and brings it upstairs..
Beam, knocks on the door and Forth opens it.
"B...beam" he said
"Can i..can i come in Phi?"
"Ahmm., do you need anything?" He asked
"I bring food, Mae told us that you didn't want to eat, so i just bring our food here so that...we...we can eat together" said Beam but Forth froze for a moment and Beam just stares at him. Beam thought that Forths don't like the idea of esting together so he speak again.. "oh.. i am sorry, i thought it's ok with you..ahm sorry i just bring back the food downstairs." He said and when he is about to turn around Forth grab his wrist and Beam look at his hands and Forth immediately let go in fear that Beam will tremble with his touch.
"No Beam...don't go..let 's eat together" he said and Beam smiles and let Phi lina and the other maids to enter and set the food in Forths balcony.
"Let's eat Phi" he said.. they eat in silence with a regular glimpse with each other. Forth is so happy, he knows that it will be the start. His Mae was right, he needs to work hard to get Beams trust again.
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Never Again
Fanfiction"What's this?" Ask Forth shouting. "Wh...what do you mean?" Ask Beam nervously And Forth show his cellphone to Beam and Beam got frozen from where he is standing, he become pale. "Fo..forth let me explain. It..it's not what you think it is" said Be...
