Ambivalence [ carlos madrigal x female reader ]

argument

Y/n pov

I woke up happy,I was having a good day. So far at least,I hadn't seen Carlos's dumb face at all which was amazing.

I had finished delivering some fresh fruits to a nearby shop,I had a grin on my face. I felt happy.

I placed a finger on my chin and thought for a moment hmm what to do next..oh yea! Julieta wanted to teach me how to make her famous arepas today! Better head there before I'm out of time!

I started walking towards the casita when a little boy that I occasionally babysit came up to me and tugged on the hem of my dress,"what do you need Giovanni?" I smiled down at him and ruffled his curly brown hair

Then he pulled out a bouquet of Rose's and gave them to me "my mami bought me these so I could give them to you! I hope you like them n/n!"

My eyes widened and I felt my face turn pink,how sweet of him!

Carlos pov

I had left the house after getting yelled at by my mom,I leaned against a wall where no one would notice me and I crossed my arms with furrowed eyebrows.

"What does she know,she doesnt even know me or y/n" I mumbled to myself in frustration

She yelled at me because of how mean I am to people,especially y/n. It's as if she likes her more than me or something.

Its ridiculous and it irked me.

I looked around the wall I was leaning against and my facial expression softened for a moment

I saw y/n,she was taking a bouquet of Rose's from a little boy. Her face turned a little pink and she giggled lightly at the gesture and she what I assume would be thanked him.

I realized I had unconsciously been smiling watching her happily interact with that kid,I quickly dropped the smile and put on my usual smug face cursing myself out in my mind for letting myself genuinely smile in public.

Why was I even smiling? Why at her of all people? Whatever.

I started to walk towards her and the boy,I decided to mess with her since that little boy could be gullible in a way. Just you'll see.

I walked up to her and wrapped my arm around her shoulder,she tensed.

I smirked down at the little boy "whatchu got there? What'd you give her buddy?" I questioned him and a smile grew on his face,she seemed annoyed but hid it behind a bright smile because we both know she wouldnt want to start something in front of a kid.

"I gave her some flowers! She deserves em'!" He exclaimed with excitement,then his smile dropped and he looked worried "are you her boyfriend? Will you beat me up?" He backed up a few steps.

My smile dropped and a sly smirk quickly grew on my face,a perfect way to embarrass her.

"Well yea,I am but I wont beat you up. I think it's nice the thing you did because she does deserve those beautiful flowers." I looked at her and she looked at me frowning,she was fuming and it amused me "isnt that right mi amor?~" I smirked smugly at her and her eye twitched.

She quickly replaced it with a sweet smile "well actually hes not my boyfriend hes just messing with you" she said with a soft tone and that smile,it made me feel something I had never felt. Ew.

My stomach felt like it was doing backflips,weird.

I looked at the boy and he got sad "what? B-but I thought..but you guys seem like a cute couple and.." his eyes got teary and my eyes widened,I didnt want to make the boy upset only her.

I was about to say something but she cut in "oh- oh- okay! He is my boyfriend. Happy?"

A fat grin spread across my face and the boy had the same reaction

"Oh okay! Well bye then! You two are great together!" And with that he ran away towards what I assume was his mom.

Then I smiled genuinely at y/n "damn if only-" I started before she shoved me away and I stumbled back,my face turning to shock.

"Get away from me. YOU. Will never. Be my boyfriend. Or anything close. You are nothing to me. I fucking hate you." She yelled pointing a finger in my face.

I just stared at her with wide eyes,I was shocked. I had never heard her say something so..hurtful...

My heart,was hurting? I dont know how or why but I felt pain.

"W- i-" then my anger took over,or more so my dumbass ego "whatever it's not like I cared about you anyways,i would never date you. That's more embarrassing than the fact that you have no friends and not even your parents talk to you. Oh? You know why? Because their fucking dead you parentless freak." I got close to her face inches away with anger prominent in my expression,but it wasnt what I actually felt..it was just all I knew how to portray.

Her expression changed from anger to sadness and her eyes went teary,she looked like she was about to cry and for some reason I felt guilty. I felt as though I wanted to apologize but I knew she wouldnt accept it,so therefore I accepted the fact that she would never warm up to me. I was going to try to be nice to her for my mother's sake but it seems I screwed it all up.

Then she started to cry,she quickly wiped her tears and stormed off. I felt like shit.

Y/n pov

I had stormed off from carlos,I was crying and that crying slowly turned into sobbing. My vision was blurry,he hit a soft spot with those words. I wasnt in my right mind anymore,I think I was having a panic attack.

I couldnt think straight and I started running,then I saw the forest,I ran straight for it.

I ran into the forest not stopping for a good while until I found a flower field,there were butterflies everywhere and fireflies. It was the most beautiful place I had ever seen.

My sobbing came to a pause and so did my running,I took a deep breath and carefully stepped through the flowers.

I found a flat spot in the middle and sat there criss cross. I looked around me in admiration,it had completely taken my mind off of everything that just happened. It was so distracting and amazing.

I smiled to myself as a butterfly landed on my arm,It was peaceful here. For once I felt okay.

Then I heard rustling in the bushes and my head shot towards the sound,my smile fading.

Then someone walked out with a guilty look.

Is that...Carlos?....why is he here?....

AUTHOR HERE HI YES LONG CHAPTER YES YW NO NEED TO THANK ME IK IM AMAZING,I HOPE YOU ENJOYED ILY ALL MWAH