November Love

7. As time goes

Chaeyoung sat at a bench late at night, she sat there seeing how her breath became one with the fog.

"Sorry I'm late!" She looks up seeing Jisoo, "did I make you wait?" She asks with a smile as Chaeyoung smiled back.

"No."

"Well, it's a nice night." Jisoo says before sitting besides her, the lavender scent she loves. "Isn't it?"

"Yeah." Chaeyoung looks up at the stars that showed tonight, her head rests against Jisoo's as both looked up at the sky.

"Are you okay?" Jisoo asks as Chaeyoung breaths in,

"It's just...How do I move on?" Chaeyoung asks as Jisoo smiles, "Just how?"

"Do you wanna go somewhere?" Jisoo asks causing Chaeyoung to look at her curiously before nodding.

"Come on!" Jisoo extends her hand causing Chaeyoung to grab it out of habit-

"Why are we here?" Chaeyoung asks as the faris wheel reaches to the top before stopping, she looks at Jisoo who was smiling with a white pearl bear.

"Because we spent our first date at a carnival, remember?" Jisoo asks as Chaeyoung slowly nods, she still remembers.

"A carnival?"

"Yeah! I haven't been to one in a while!" Jisoo smiles as Chaeyoung looks around, "do you like it?"

"Of course."

"You won me this, remember?" Jisoo reminds her as Chaeyoung stares at the bear, "What? W-why are you crying?" Jisoo panicked as Chaeyoung was staring at her with tears falling.

"Hey, it's okay!" Jisoo placed the bear in-between them before hugging Chaeyoung, "your okay."

"Stop." Chaeyoung pulled away as Jisoo backs off, they sat there in silence before Jisoo looks off in the moonlight.

"You know, I never got to tell you how much I love you." Jisoo says as Chaeyoung looks the other direction, she looks back before sighing.

"I didn't mean those things I said." Jisoo says as Chaeyoung's grip on the rail tightened, "Chae, look at me."

"Please?"

"What do you want me to say?" Chaeyoung asks as she looks at Jisoo's soft eyes,

"Talk to me, tell me how you are! Just let me in."

"Let you in?" Chaeyoung asks as if she was hearing a joke, "Are you kidding me?"

"Jisoo, you died." Chaeyoung looks at her as if she was crazy,

"You died 2 years ago."

Chaeyoung packed everything that reminds her of Her and stuffs it in a box, she couldn't look at That.

"And you expect me to just let you in?"

"Well, you still dream of me." Jisoo shot back, "after 2 years and here we are, You haven't moved on."

"Why is that?"

Chaeyoung looks at her hands if it was very interesting, "I don't know."

I did know.

"Are you afraid?" Jisoo asks as Chaeyoung looks up at her, "Chae?"

"You're getting blurry already." Chaeyoung says shakily, "of course I am."

"Because one day, I won't see you again." Chaeyoung picks up the bear, "the road will turn misty and I won't see you anymore."

"I wish I could've had more time with you."

"But I think I have accept you're gone."

"Will you be alright?"

"No, but I'll try my best." Chaeyoung says as Jisoo held her hand, "I love you, Kim Jisoo."

"I loved you too, Park Chaeyoung."

Chaeyoung blinked and looked over at the empty space that was now next to her, she held the bear closely before exiting the ride. She walks away with the bear before seeing two kids play, they reminded her of her happiest memories.

One of the kids were playing games while the other stood there and she taps one of their shoulders before they look back at her.

"Trying to win?" She asks as they nod their head, she hands them the bear and smiles.

"Here." She hands the bear over before leaving the carnival, the last bitter memory she wishes to forget.

Dear November Love,

I met you in November.
I got to know you and be with you, our times together was the greatest it could've ever been. I was so happy to call you mine and so happy to have you in my life, there wasn't a day that I regretted being with you.

I loved you.

As I write this, I'm letting you go.

I met you in November and now letting go in November. I guess November was our month, I hope your happy now. As for I, will have to live past the many November's reminding me of you.

Goodbye and thank you.

-C