"Alright then. So I don't think I did any work and my days were just and relaxed so I will go over my thoughts as that was the only thing I did that matters right now. So day 2 I started thinking about how I behaved through out the 30 years of my life and I wished with all my heart that I could have lived this life before even if it was just a week it was the best thing that happened. I was happy. And that perfect I was. That was me attempting to make myself happy that I never could. Me being perfect was me desperately trying to look for that thing that would make me happy. This perfe t wa sthe reason I could never fall on love. Never make the people around me happy. Never cried. Me never crying took a toll on my personality and made me this Hitler that I am now. I never expressed my problems because I was forcing myself to believe I had none. But now that I think about it. I would say all I had was my problems. Being the ruler of this kingdom was a curse I was born with and instead of making it better I made worse and worse till was hell. The hell that I created. Maybe if I wasn't like this me, you and this whole kingdom would have had a better life. It was all my fault all along. And I think and believe that what you say is Ruining the order is something I should have done. You are my Savior. You are on your way to fixing this. And I lost. And me losing is better for me and this whole kingdom. You just need time and you can fix it. Trust me this time I am not playing with you no more" I tried to explain.
"I don't want this. You are right this kingdom is a curse. The curse where everyone is watching you and being perfect is the only way out. Or people will criticize you. And when you be criticized as a Ruler you know you can't do this. This isn't a movie where if I keep going I will make this better. And I think everyday when I didn't give up and told myself I was making it better all I did was make it worse. Look around yourself you walked up to here didn't you? Did you see the misery. They all were working harder because they had to not because I made them a hard worker but because I made them work hard to fix this place and wasn't able to pay them. They are in pain and misery. Humans are best under rules. They suffer when they are under people like me" He said.
Why is he arguing with me? Did I make this place a hell so bad that he has given up? In the 30 years I have been on this planet he the only one who tried. He was courageous and strong. I deserve to die. I put him through hell when I was in comfort. If I was there for him during this would he have been better? Would he have nut been in pure misery? I thought to myself. The guilt it was rising. The weight on my shoulders was getting heavier. The air felt so think. I choked. The blood in my veins slowed down and my heart was beating faster but felt like no blood was even going in the heart. I gasped for air as I felt like dying.
He reached out to me and handed me a bottle of water and told me to calm down. He said repeated the words "it's okay" as his volume went down....."Its okay, it's okay, it's okay calm down.... Breathe okay" that's all I heard and that was what I wanted to hear it felt like music to my ears, and everything was normal again I could breathe my blood was at its normal consistency again and my heart rate was normal. He offered me water.
"I don't need water I need you to go on with your next 6 days and nights,please" I requested.
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The Bloody Chandelier Of Perfection
Ficción histórica"Only if this chandelier never tasted blood" When a perfect ruler who thinks of him higher than any living soul meets his painful death that he choose for himself. This is the tale of how the the ruler of the Kingdom of Doom and Perfection, feels t...
