The Bloody Chandelier Of Perfection

Chapter VIII

"Alright one the last grandfather came to the place and sitted him in the last room in the hallway (shown above). And he looked around, I could tell he was stunned, at the point I wanted someone to tell me that they were proud so I started asking him questions" he continued.
It realy hurt me when he said he wanted someone to tell him they were proud, if I was there then he would have done more things for the people to be proud of him and I would have told him that I was proud of George Williamston, what a shame.
"So how are the people back home? I asked him. They are alright, they miss you a lot, they would love it of you could stop by and help them lift up the boxes, change the lightbulbs and move the furniture like you used to. He replied, which made me think whether they were happy for me or no. What do they think about me as a leader? Are they happy? I asked. Hoping they were happy. Well they are not as happy as they were with you, they are working hard but really aren't getting what they deserve, your mother thinks you are trying your best, she would love it if you could go and visit her. It would make her day and she would return to being herself again like she were with you. He replied, I started sobbing, I realized I didn't need to be the king to make them proud, I did all this and it made them unhappy what a shame, I felt like the worst son. I left her their knowing deep down that she is doing just fine and is happy with it but I was greedy I thought I could make everyone love me. It hurts to know that, as bad as I wanted to stop him or ask him to go I really wanted to know more" he explained.
"I know it might sound like I'm saying this out of sympathy or to sound good but I'm going to be honest with you, it really does hurt me too" I replied.
"I trust you now. After all that I believe every word you say, then I asked grandfather to be honest as he always had been with me and said Hey, so I know I left mom there and she probably needs me but, what did you mean when you said she isn't the same? Son, she had an accident, she wouldn't agree to taking her medicine if you didn't give to her and she was feeling dizzy and feel down the stairs and into her grave... Can you visit her? He said as he started sobbing and that's when it hit me, I wasn't just a bad ruler or son I was the worst of all, the only person that had been there for me died without me being there and the fact that I couldn't see her face when she was being buried hurt a lot. But I kept asking more with tears rolling down my cheeks, I could feel the in my neck and it was the worst feeling. Grandfather one more question before you go, what do you think of me as a ruler? I said. Son I love you with all my heart but, you messed up the order of things. You see you nieng with your mom and your family everything was alright and no one wanted you to be a ruler and try to make them proud, they were at their best with you. And I know you were at your best with them. Come home... Please you have done enough.he said to me and after that all I could do was apologize and I asked him to leave and then I thought, I know he asked me to visit mom but I don't deserve it, I don't deserve to see her, I am already as bad as I could be, what could it change if I was a little more selfish and didn't visit her, it hurts me too much to see her. I can't do this, no rest in peace mom I hope you get all the happiness there is. I love you mom. I cried all day after that and this is my last act I did as a ruler" he said.
"what is it?" I asked.