Lost (Lesbian Story)

Chapter 32 Shoots

Ashley's p.o.v.

This trip full of photoshoots and interviews didnt go as how I planned. I had been away for a week now and god I missed home. Not necessary the place but the people. I was thinking of how stupid I am. Maybe it was stupid for taking things slow. Especially when Im away. What if Demi sees someone else? I mean me and Demi aren't official together yet. So it wouldnt be that weird.

Ugh I should have asked her to be my girlfriend when I had the chance.

Not that I dont trust her, I mean I talked to her through text but still.

The latest shoot I have done was an hour ago but it was a shoot where I had to pose in lingerie. I didnt know that but I signed the contract so I had to do it. I wasnt proud of it, not that Im insecure about my body but I dont want to be known as a slut or something. Thats how I see it perhaps the people in this business see it differently.

The shoot from yesterday was also weird. I had to pose with an other model. Kendall Jenner, she was really nice. We had to do some poses where I hold her. While I had to do that I was thinking of Demi. I wish I could hold her like that but she wasnt here. It was hard doing all this without her. The hardest thing was that I had to do this interview today. I wasnt looking forward to that but it had to be done.

'How are you feeling today Ashley?', the interviewer asked me. I felt a little bit awkward and nervous but I tried to losen up. I told her I was fine and asked how her day was.

'I heard you did several shoots these past days. Can you tell us something about it?'

'Yes of course', I replied.

'We received an unseen picture from the shoot earlier today and other pictures from the others, is it okay if I show them?'

I nodded and the pictures appeared on a screen behind us.

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Demi's p.o.v.

Ashley looked good on the television. Yes, I was watching the interview. She became quite popular as the new model from their family company.

My mouth dropped open when I saw those exclusive pictures. She looked so good and hot. Damn she looked hot. That picture from the shoot where she was wearing lingerie. That stung a little bit because she is mine. Not official but technically she is.

The thought of that picture hanging everywhere started to freak me out. Everyone would stare and admire her.

'Are you seeing someone?', the woman on the TV asked Ashley. I could tell the question took her by surprise.

'I am single', she spoke with no emotion.

'But you have feelings for someone right?', she asked.

Ashley smiled. It was more like a shy smile. 'Yes I have', she replied.

I was wondering if she was talking about me. I mean it has to be me. But according to the magazines and Sarah, who is stalking Ashley 24/7, the paparazzi always spot her with Kendall Jenner. Im not saying Im jealous but still.

And that was when the next picture showed up. Kendall and Ashley were on it, thank god they weren't wearing lingerie but they were wearing special clothes from their own merch. The thing that bugged me was that their hands were around each other.

The rumor that Kendall falls for girls kept going and it was only getting bigger.

'Maybe that someone is Kendall?', the lady asked Ashley. 'I mean you look really good together and you seem to be together everyday'

'What can I say', Ashley started. ' Sure she isnt bad looking but she is a really lovely person. '

After that they talked about the new merch they were posing for.

Ashley didnt deny that person was Kendall. Maybe she had a crush on her? I mean she is so pretty. Why me if you could have her? My insecureties took the best of me and the feeling to take them away with the touch from my knife on my skin kept going bigger.

Instead of cutting I decided to hang out with Sarah. Lilly and Britney were on a double date with their 'boyfriends'. They weren't official yet, just the dating phase.

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'Hi how are ya?', Sarah asked when we took place at a table in a restaurant. I was hungry so yeah.

'Did you see the interview?', I asked her.

Her face lightened up with a big smile. 'Of course. She looked so good'

Its always weird when Sarah says she looks hot or something but Im used to it. She is into girls so its a compliment when she says Ashley is hot.

I was going to get us food. When I got back with the plate in my hands I saw that Sarah was on her phone. It looked like they were glued to the screen.

I put the plate with the burgers on the table. 'Whats up?', I asked Sarah.

Her mouth was slightly open and words came out of it later.

'I dont think you want to know', she hesitated.

'Tell me'

'You know my fanaccount on twitter for Ashley?', she asked.

I nodded. I knew about that and I still think its weird. But she keeps saying its a good thing so she is one of the first who knows what Ashley is up to.

'What is it this time?', I asked.

She showed me her phone. I looked at it and I saw a picture of Ashley and Kendall. It looked like they were kissing but it could be the angle. The picture wasnt that obvious but you could see something was there.

'I dont want to talk about her', I said to Sarah. 'Lets focus on ourselves okay?', I smiled through the pain.

Sarah started talking about others topics and I pretended to listen but the truth is I really wasnt. My thoughts were with Ashley. Why would she do this? And on the other hand maybe it wasnt true. I should talk to Ashley first but how?

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Two hours later I had an incoming skypecall. Yes it was from Ashley. I didnt accept it immediately. I was thinking about how to respond. Should I act cool like nothing happened or should I say something?

Without thinking I accepted the call.

'DEMI', she screamed. She sounded excited. 'God I missed you'

I smiled but it fade away pretty soon.

'Didnt seem like it', I said.

'What are you talking about?'

'That picture. You and Kendall kissing.'

'That picture isnt true. Her manager will say something about it in an interview tomorrow. Its the wrong angle. Demi, I would never'

I sighed. 'Okay I wasnt sure about it, I wanted to hear from you if it was true. I just dont really know if Im happy about the fact you are a model. Its hard for me to see that'

'You know its my only option', Ashley said. She looked irritated and mad. 'Because my dad was there for me when I was in jail'

Oh she hit my spot. She knew I regretted that more than anything. I tried to make up for it but thats hard.

'He only bailed you out', I said.

'Well at least he did something', Ashley replied.