Do I really worth? (Jinx x reader)

chapter 7 (Burning house)

Next day I went to the same forest to train more on my gun, I feel so comfortable when I'm using it, honestly while I was training I thought about Cait and I was hopping to see her again ' what the hell are you saying '  the sounds return again I tried to keep shooting so it vanishe but it was stronger ' how dare you to think about her, she must be regretted at the moment she left that she talked with you'  I couldn't continue and I put the end of the gun on the ground and lean on it, the sounds were screaming and didn't let me focuses ' but I lov... ' , ' you don't deserve to think about her, do you understand the difference between you ' it was right and also painful for me, my eye filled with tear and I was about to cry.

?: Y/N ?

I turned my head to see who was, and I felt surprised when I saw Cait!

Cait: is everything alright?

my eyes where red and I was shaking a little bit and breathing fast than normal, Cait get closer and put her hand on my shoulder chilling me and check is every fine, I stand and wipe my eyes making sure that she don't see that:

Y/N: yeah, everything is fine ' I said that with a trembling voice ' I just lost my attention a little bit

Cait: you sure? ' she said that with a worry look on her face '

Y/N: yeah don't worry, want to challenge? ' I said that while am reloading my weapon '

we had some rounds and challenge each other for hours until I decide it is time to leave, the moment before I tell her I felt some pre-rain drops dropping on my face I looked to the sky and notice that there is some heavy clouds is covering the sky:

Cait: looks like it will rain soon, did you bring an umbrella?

Y/N: no, I think I should hurry to my...

Cait: no need ' she interrupt me while bringing out an umbrella ' you can come with me.

Y/N: that kind from you but I don't want to late you.... ' I couldn't continue my word until it start raining slightly but am sure it will become hard '

Cait: come on, you don't want to wet your cloth and get cold ' while opening her umbrella ' 

I wasn't sure what to do but it didn't take a long time until Cait pull my wrest making me standing next to her under the umbrella and we were close to each other

Cait: see, it wasn't that hard, listen in this cool weather I would like to visit my favorite caffe, am sure it will be wonderful, want to come?

I felt that I had no choice so I just nodded my head accepting her offer.

we walk under the rain throw street of Piltover, and it was something I didn't imagine it, clean street and light is everywhere, a white quite light that give a a feel of safety, normal people walking peacefully not effected by shimmer, holding there umbrellas and enjoying the rain, some children are playing without fear and there innocent smile is covering there faces, also there were some enforcer here and there, it was something as dream for me, the Piltover people leave it as a normal life routine, ' you have to remember your place, RAT '  a hallucination start whispering in my ear ' it is not your time ' I tried to control myself and not rage or do something stupid, I'm in Piltover not the undercity ' the moment she know your roots she will just leave you and spit at you, she will relies how much you're miserable -and start laughing crazy- '  'oh please just stop' I didn't feel myself and it seem that I said a little bit loud.

Cait: what was that?

Y/N: nothing, I'm justtt aah, amazed by the rain, it's cozy, isn't it

Cait: yes it is ' looking at me wondering if am fine '