The new beginning

Chapter 10

Ada
"Ada, is it really okay if I come with you two?" "Selin, look, I can't leave you alone at home. furthermore, this will be the first year that I will be able to celebrate New Year's Eve with my friends. I want you to come with us." "Seriously? Will I not disturb you two?" "Saçmalama." I gave her a tight hug and gave her a quick kiss on the cheek. "Now we need to get ready. He will be here in two hours."

He said that he would pick us up early so that we would have time to do something together. I don't know what he has planned, but I am really looking forward to it. Finally, a year where I am not alone. It all feels so good, but I'm scared. I have never felt this good since my mother and I left home 14 years ago.

After we left everything behind, I felt empty. I wasn't complete. There was always something missing. I tried everything to not feel that way, but it didn't work. I even had a boyfriend. But he- never mind. I don't really want to think about him. I am a person who pushes all bad things and emotions in the back of my mind, where I can't find them anymore. At least I hope that I can't find them anymore and until now it has worked.

After I heard the news that my mother died, I didn't believe it. It was like the world fell apart and I was standing alone in the ashes. I felt empty and didn't know what to do with my life. In such a foreign world alone, life no longer made sense. But then I remembered the words I had told at the grave of my mother. I promised her that I would be happy. I told her I would follow my dream and make the best out of my life. I had to keep my promise, even if it meant to be very rough for me.

Now enough with thinking about the past. A new chapter in my life will start from this night on. I will start this chapter with my best friends. We will make good memories and unforgettable ones. I will enjoy my life and keep my promise. I will be happy. I have already achieved the first goal, which was art, because it was my dream. I have a job where I can have fun.

"Selin, do you want to shower first or should I?" "Go, I have to get something ready."

When I came to my room after the shower, there was a very nice outfit ready. Selin was standing next to it, grinning like crazy. "I've got something ready. I want you to look like a bomb today. I want Bora to go crazy when he sees you. I see the way he looks at you, and believe me, he doesn't look at you like a best friend. He wants more and I can see it in your eyes too. Whenever you two look at each other, I see hearts and sparkles above your heads. I think something good is going to happen tonight." "Selin"

"Wait, I'm not done yet. I know you will keep denying it. I know you're scared. You're afraid he's going to hurt you, but believe me, this man does not want to hurt you, and if he does, I will kill him and bury him in the desert. But that's not the point right now. He wants you and you want him, but your thoughts won't leave the two of you alone, or rather, yours. Look Ada, it's been four years since you broke up with your ex. You need to open up again. You can't just sit around and say, "I'm scared." I want you to be happy, and I see the happiness in your eyes when you always talk about Bora or are around him. I remember you telling me that you promised your mother that you will be happy. Now it's the time. Get your man and be happy."

I am speechless. I've never heard her say anything like that before. It was like a slap in the face, but it felt good. I think I am back to my senses. I made my mother a promise and I will do it for myself. She is right. It's been four years now. I really feel something for Bora. He makes me happy, and it never gets boring with him. I told you this feeling would emerge from the back of your mind one day and reveal itself. You were right, inner voice. And that's the first time that my emotions that I pushed in the back of my mind came to the light. I want him and I will get him. Come what may. "Selin, I love you. You are the best. I needed this blow." I hugged her and a tear came. I realized that I had feelings for him. "Selin, you are right. I love him." "Oh, be sonunda. We need to get you ready for your man."