The new beginning

Chapter 12

Ada

"What are you doing here?" He didn't answer me, just looked at me. "I asked what you were doing here." Slowly, I became angry. "I wanted to see you." I had to laugh. "Hahahaha. After you left without saying anything, how did you even find me?" "It was easy. I know how you're ticking." "Oh, stop it you selfish bastard." "Hey, don't talk to me like that."

"I can talk the way I want. It's 2022 and hello, in case you haven't noticed, every person is allowed to have their own opinion." He just looked at me. "Say it already. What do you want from me?" "I want you to break up with Bora." I don't think I heard him right. Did you hear it, guys? What is this guy saying to me? Where did he get the right to talk to me like that? "Pardon? And why?" "You almost got pregnant because of him."

What's that got to do with it? Sana ne eşek. I can get pregnant whenever I want and with whoever I want. Oh, slow down, girl. What are you saying? "Huh? Are you freaking serious? That's not even a reason." "Oh yes, it is. Either you break up with him or you come with me." "There's no way I'm breaking up with him and I'm not coming with you either."

He took me by the wrist and pulled me toward the door. "No! Let me go! You have no right to do this!!! I'm 28! I can make my own decisions about my life!" But he was still pulling me along. "No! Bora! N-"

"Hey, Ada, wake up." I knew that voice. I opened my eyes. "You had a nightmare. Here, drink a glass of water." I was breathing heavily. I looked shocked around me and was glad to see Bora by my side. I took the glass and drank it. "Slow down. Don't choke yourself."

I gave him the glass back and he set it on the nightstand. "Thanks." He put his hands on my cheeks and wiped my tears with his thumbs. I didn't even notice I was crying. "Can I ask you what you dreamt about?"

Why did I dream about him? What was he even doing in my dreams? Does it even have a meaning?

"Ehmm... There was someone and it was about me being pregnant." "Okay." That was the only thing. He kissed me on my forehead and laid next to me, holding me in his embrace.

"I was just shocked when I saw that-" "I know. I am an idiot." "No wait, I want to finish it. First of all, you aren't an idiot. Don't say that to yourself again. I am the only person allowed to say that to you. And second of all, I would be the happiest woman in the world to have a child with you. It wasn't in our destiny to have a child right now, and maybe it is better that way. Don't get me wrong. I just want to enjoy the time with you." He smiled at me and kissed me on my cheek. "I love you," he said.

Yeah, it turned out that I wasn't pregnant. I stressed my freaking organs out of me the last two weeks. But now I can rest in peace. I am not dead, but I can rest. In peace.

I was thinking the whole day about the person in my dream. Why him? Why, of all the people, was he in my dream? And why does he care about my relationship with Bora?

"Ada can I come in?" I was snapped out of my thoughts by the sound of his beautiful voice.

He just came in and closed the door behind him. He came all the way up to me and sat on my desk and looked down at me. "Ada..." "Hmm..." I looked at my hands. "Aşkım iyi misin?"

"Yes, why do you ask?" "Because since your nightmare in the morning, you have been very quiet and I just wanted to check on you?"

Yeah, the nightmare in the morning. Doesn't that sound weird? I think it's weird, but it's what happened. It wasn't a daymare. Or can I say that and is that a neologism? He took my hand and then I realized I had zoomed out and was lost in the ocean of my thoughts. I looked at our hands and that was what made me happy. His concern about me. He worries, and I love him for that. I thought that he wouldn't get that I was very thoughtful today, but I was wrong.