The sick, beautiful biography of Hazel

// 1 // School game day

I just changed my clothes for the school. Today we are gonna have that special day and cheerleaders need to use their uniforms. The clock is now half past six and the school starts 8 o'clock! I am gonna be so late. Ugh why just this morning, when we are not allowed to be late at school. I have been two years at this school and still have not learned that every morning we need to be at school at eight o'clock. This is unbelievable!! 

I won't be alone because I want to see my lovely boyfriend before the first class. The basketball players do have the game tonight and they will not be seen much today at school. It really is unfair that players are allowed to skip game-days but cheerleader are not, we need to study when they are training and enjoying their life! 

Ugh looks like I missed again my eyeliner and eye-shadow at home. So I need to ask If Kaitlyn or Caroline do have their. Usually at morning I need to run away from home as soon as I am able if I don't want to get middle of war between my parents. I think that they are gonna divorce soon, they have those stupid arguments whole time now. And I am so stressed out, that's why some days I keep falling asleep at school. 

Just in some reason my parents are so angry with me at this time, so I don't like to be at home. They were close to ban this nights game because I did fail couple of exams. They do say that I am sacrificing too much time for cheerleading. But they does not realize that it has been the same since my junior year. 

I don't know what is wrong with my mother, usually she is so kind but now she is just so overprotective for me! Can you imagine, yesterday she wanted to speak with me about the sex! Like is she joking... she is the last person in this world who would like to speak about that topic. after that she did ask if everything is fine between me and Augustus. Um how is she able just move from one topic to another in what... two seconds?? And then this morning she ignored me like I was dead. Parents are weird creatures, they are so complicated sometimes, but sometimes they are the best in this mad world. 

By the way I did not see Gus this morning, I don't know why but he was missing the home class. That is really abnormal for him. Usually he does just skip few of classes [in his own words 'those classes that does not have a point']. I almost am worried about he, but I know that if something is wrong he does call [he always does]. 

Now I do have mathematics and I do hate this class. This is like the worst ever school subject. This is the subject that I do fail every time, even if I try really to learn those difficult calculation formulas and mathematical equations. Luckily Kaitlyn has this same class so I am not alone at here. Caroline did have her makeup bag so I borrowed her eyeliner. She did not have suitable eye-shadow so I didn't use it today. Yay now I need to grab my makeup bag from home after school, and I really do wish that anyone is home. 

Three hours later... 

Looks like I found my boyfriend... and looks like he have drank too much alcohol. Really is he trying to ruin his life. When I got to home couple minutes ago he was sitting in front of the house smoking! I have said multiple times that some day he is gonna get the cancer if he does not stop using cigarettes but looks like he does not even listen. When he saw me he looked so sad, like something bad just happened for him. But that is not a reason to smoke. Whatever happened to him, I don't think that it was so tragic. 

But I know that he can't attend to this nights game. But that is his own fault. He does know the rules of our school. If you're drunk you are not allowed to take part of those events of school. I asked if his parent know that he is at here. He said that he does not care. I know that I need to call for his parents before my parents are doing that thing. Augustus is not allowed to be at my room [which is stupid] when it is school day till the next day. Just like that is gonna stop me from spending time with him. 

Kaitlyn called for me and asked where am I? When I said that I am not able to attend game she asked why? I said that Gus has drank alcohol and he refuses to leave my house. Maybe I just let the note for my parents that he is sleeping at my room when I am at this stupid school game. But I do know that my parents are gonna kill me for that. 

30 minutes later...

Now I am at the basketball court and the game will start during fifteen minutes. As a cheer captain I need to start this event and now I am super scared. I don't know why... because normally I do enjoy from cheerleading. 

I know that this sound like crazy but it is like my heart would know that something bad has already happened or will be happening tonight...