TXT ONE SHOTS|mostly yeonbin|open request

∭I love you∭ part one ✑ ~Yeonbin

"I love you"

Pain. Endless pain. Sharp pain deep in his heart, making him pant. Breathless. He can't breath. He parted his lips, searching for a slit air. All he got is nothing. His mind started to daze, he felt light-headed, his vision began to blur. He kneel down as he can't take the pain anymore, he can feel every part of himself screaming. It's like a nightmare, but he know that it's true.

Everything get wrong when he heard Yeonjun confess to a girl.

"Hyung, you'll forever love me right?"

Yeonjun smiled. The warm, gorgeous smile that can always gives Soobin safe and loved feelings. "My little dummy" His voice is gentle, tickling Soobin's sense, he started to giggle in the older's embrace. Yeonjun hugged him more tightly, showing how much he loved and cherished the younger.

But Soobin didn't notice that Yeonjun didn't answer his question.

Neither did Yeonjun tell Soobin he love him before. He never say it, but Soobin, never asked for it. The 'I love you's are always told by the younger.

Soobin knew that Yeonjun loves him. Or I should say he wanted to tell himself Yeonjun loves him. He wanted it to be true and Yeonjun is always acting like it's true, right?

He even gave up his virginity for Yeonjun. He never reject the older, even it's sex which he's a bit confused about it. But he still let his Hyung to use him.

He gave up his everything, he gave Yeonjun all of his heart.

So when those words, those words he'll never get to be told, flow out Yeonjun's lips straight to the girl, Soobin felt so weak and hurt.

He saw the girl nodded and Yeonjun hugged her. From the corner of the dark, Soobin can see Yeonjun's face, filled with pure happiness, not the fake smile he use to receive from the older.

Yeonjun's smile could be so sweet and true. Soobin felt so far away from his Hyung for the first time. The feeling is so unreal.

Maybe i should just go away, as far as possible.

Soobin didn't cry. He doesn't have the feeling to cry, he just felt so so empty. He can't even feel himself.

Everything is hurting. He spent all of his time, all of his love, all of his attention over Yeonjun. He's acting so obvious, even their friends knows that and expect the two to be together.

But no. Yeonjun's with that girl. That girls who's in the same class with Soobin. Turned out Yeonjun only get close to Soobin for the fucking girl.

It hurts. Every time he think of the older, it hurts like fuck.

He never loved him. Soobin knew it but he never wanted to admit it.

And now, he's hurt. So hurt. So fucking hurt.

"Hyung, you need to move on."

I know, I always know. But I can't Beomgyu, I can't.

Beomgyu felt hurt seeing his hyung like this. Being his best friend, Beomgyu knows how deeply Soobin's in love with Yeonjun, and it's shock that the older betrayed him. Yeonjun only approached Soobin for that girl.

Soobin have been crying for days. His mother was worried and called Beomgyu over. Beomgyu get into Soobin's room only to see Soobin on the bed, buried in pillows and blankets, softly sobbing. Since that day Beomgyu went to visit Soobin everyday after his school.

Soobin haven't be in the school for weeks already. He's not the type that would not attend school, he's a good student. But Soobin doesn't feel like going to school, he don't want to see the older. The scene of Yeonjun being with that girl breaks his heart into pieces again and again. He also don't have the appetite to eat nor sleep. He have been starving and because of the lack of sleep and more crying, his condition wasn't really well.