YES OR NO ft. YzaCole

🌼YZABEL🌼

You know what is the hardest part of being inlove?

It is how you let go the person that you really love even if you still want to hold on.

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I was just a simple girl living the life I want.

Mom taught me to be good and be grateful of all the things we received.

Since my father died, mom worked hard just to provide our needs.

I saw how she sacrificed things just to give me the best in life.

That's why I promised to myself that I will never disappoint mom.

I thought I can....

But everything changed when I met her.

She changed my perception in life.

She taught me how to love and that love has no boundaries.

I was already looking for the future to the point I imagined myself being with her for the rest of my life.

Pero sadyang mapaglaro talaga ang tadhana.

I thought things would stay the same but it isn't. It's like a wind that's passing by.

Is this how our hearts work?

Do we really need to be hurt when we love?

Why do such things happened unexpectedly when you are just wanting things to flow.

when you are just thinking the best moments that lasts forever.

Is world unfair? Or are we really not meant for each other?

Nagmahal lang din naman ako.

I want to blame the world. I want to be mad at mom.

Why? Why can't they accept things like this!

why they can't let people choose their happiness?

But they judged instead.

I don't understand.

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Summer is supposedly to relax and enjoy.

But for me, this is the worst summer I ever had.

I missed her. I am always missing her.

Lagi kong naiisip na what if pinaglaban ko siya nun. What if naging matapang ako sa harap ni mom? What If hindi ako naging duwag.

Mayroon pa kayang TAYO?

So many what If's pero at the end iniiyak ko nalang lahat ng sakit at panghihinayang.

Mapapatawad pa kaya niya ako? Dahil hindi ko siya ipinaglaban sa harap ni mommy nung mga panahon na iyon?

Minsan ko na ding inisip na puntahan siya at sabihin sa kanya na magpakalayo layo na kami.

But I always think about mom. I always think what would she feel.

Even though Mom is against us hindi ko pa rin siya maiwanan. She's my mom. I will not be here if hindi dahil sa kanya.

I respect her but what about me?

What about my happiness?

Hindi ko na alam. Hindi ko na alam kung ano pa ang dapat gawin ko.

I want to see Cole right now. I want to apologize to her. I want to tell her how I love her that I regretted I never fight for her.

My friends are also worried about me.

I always refused them whenever they invited me to do shopping.

I told you we supposedly enjoying the summer but here I am.

Nawawalan ako ng gana sa lahat ng bagay. Gusto ko nalang lagi ang mapag isa.

Pero kapag nag iisa naman ako ay naiisip ko yung mga panahon na kasama ko siya.

Those moments with her.

Kunti nalang mababaliw na ko.

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Sorry ngayon lang but anyway
Enjoy reading.

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~gatasowshie