Narcissa Malfoy x reader

I want you

TW mentions of self harm 

You cried as loud as you could, tears flowing down your cheeks like waterfalls. Why can't I just be normal? You couldn't stop sobbing even tho you really had nothing to cry about anymore. Tears were just falling by themselves at this point and all you did was sit there waiting for your eyes to dry out. 

Someone knocked on your door. "Who is it?"- you were still sobbing but you could control your voice somewhat. "It's me, Narcissa. May I come in darling?"- your heart started beating faster but this time from anger. Is she doing this on purpose? "I want to be alone."- you said rudely but after you realized how rude you sounded "I just need to be alone for some time, please." "Alright dear, just please don't do anything stupid"- what did she mean by that. No it can't be, she can't know. 

You threw the pillow back on the bed and jumped to the door. When you opened the door, Narcissa was already leaving but when she saw you she immediately walked back "Are you any better?"- she said innocently. "Wh- I'm fine, just, what did you mean by /don't do anything stupid/?" Narcissa looked you in the eyes, then looked at your hand, your wrist to be precise. "I saw your hand when you were crying at the breakfast" she moved her hand towards your wrist and you snapped. "Don't touch it!" you pushed her hand away. She moved a bit further from you "I'm sorry." she turned her back to you as she was leaving. You wanted to go after her and tell her you're sorry. She was so nice to you and you were acting like a brat. 

You went to your room and after some time Draco came by to ask you how are you and to tell you he's leaving. You were just lying on the bed thinking about Narcissa and the way you acted towards her. After long considering, you stood up and decided to go say you're sorry. 

"I mean what is the worst thing she can do? Kill me?" huh

You looked for her in her room, living room, library, pretty much all around the house but she was nowhere to be found. The flower garden? 

You walked out of the house and realized how cold it is outside. It had been raining and you had no idea. The cold wind was breezing and you were wearing a short summery dress that was half wet from the tears. Your hair was a mess but you didn't even know. 

You were standing in front of the flower garden (it's suppose to be closed space and walls are glass and yk everything is in glass), through the door you could see Narcissa inside. She was cutting the dead pedals from roses, black roses in particular. You knocked on the glass door and she looked over at you, kinda flinched. You slowly opened the door and peaked inside "May I come in?" she turned her head back to the roses, her expression mad. "I don't know."- she didn't look at you when she said it. You walked in and went to the other side of the table where the flowers are. "You're cutting dead pedals?" - you knew she was doing that but just wanted to start conversation somehow. She didn't respond but just ignored you. It was cute to you how she got mad and she looked cute mad. You didn't want to laugh because you had no idea how she would react at it. You picked one rose and started pulling off pedals one by one "I'm sorry that I reacted that way" you looked at her but still no reaction. This time you couldn't help but laugh a bit. That's when she raised her head and looked at you. Still holding the rose in her hand "What's so funny?" she was so serious and it was even more cute. You smiled as wide as you could and couldn't keep the laughter. "It's funny how you got so mad, it's like you care..." the last part hit you, you stopped smiling. Narcissa still didn't talk but she looked confused or sad you didn't really know which one. "Why wouldn't I?"- she responded after some time. "Why wouldn't you what?" "Care". she said softly, really quiet, almost whispered. 

You opened your mouth so say something but instead started coughing. You were coughing A LOT and it was embarrassing. Narcissa was confused of what just happened and she walked to your side of the table. She tapped your back lightly and gave you some water from the sink. You stopped coughing but you felt really ill. Suddenly your eyes were closing and your nose was all runny. "Oh dear y/n, what are you wearing?! Are you mad, don't you know it's minus 5 degrees Celsius!" she looked worried. It felt nice, knowing someone was actually worried about you. 

You walked inside the house and she took you straight to the fireplace. The fire was cracking and everything was so peaceful, just you and Cissy. "There you go"- she tucked you in the chair and covered you with blanket. It smelt so nice and you couldn't help but sniff it, she didn't react tho, which is good. You were following her with your eyes as she went to the hallway and called Dobby. She told Dobby to make you a tea. She dropped something and leaned over to pick it :"Damn nice ass" - you though out loud. "Did you say something?" she turned her head to you, still leaning down. "I said what a nice view, through the window" - you smiled showing your teeth. The view from there was a forest, thick dark green forest. "Yes, I agree" she said and sit on the chair beside you. 

She put her hand on your forehead "Do you have a fever?" and you laughed once again. "What now?" she was kinda annoyed and she looked adorable. "It's just the muggle thing you did, checking the fever with your hand". "Huh, maybe it's not a muggle thing. Maybe we started doing it first." "Maybe."

She was so close to you, so damn close. You could feel her breath on your skin and her lips, they were so close, way too close, if only your...

Your lips met. You kissed her lips. You finally felt her warm ,soft lips on yours, pressed against each other. She didn't move away and just when you were about to move she kissed you back. 

What just happened?

Narcissa was kissing you now and she slowly opened her mouth. You followed along and in just a second her tongue slipped in your mouth. You were fighting for dominance at this point and Narcissa was wining. Her hand was now on your neck gently squeezing it and yours on her thigh. You slowly moved away from each other and you were shocked.

Narcissa looked away for a second and then looked at you. She looked concerned. You started smiling but Narcissa stood up from her seat. "This is wrong!" she walked around the room "Why did I, UGH!" now she annoyed you but you didn't want to ruin this. "Hey, hey" you cupped her face "It's okay, please relax. Nothing will happen, I swear I won't tell anyone..." She looked at you and then smiled softly. 

"Dobby has made a tea for miss y/n!" - Dobby walked in happily not suspecting a thing. You moved from each other and you went back to your seat. "Thank you Dobby!" - you smiled happily and Dobby went away. 

"I hope you don't regret it..." - you said as you took a sip from the tea. She sit back on her chair "I want you y/n." she just looked at you with no facial expression what so ever and you started blushing like crazy. 

"My lipstick is all around your lips". she smiled. She took her wand and removed it from your face then from hers. You put your hand on hers and pet it gently. She was so beautiful, so sweet and hot. Her face was so pale and her hair, two different colors, fit her so perfectly. 

Everything was fine until you heard someone's footsteps and it wasn't Dobby. Dobby didn't have any shoes, the steps were loud and aggressive. You moved your hand from Narcissa's just on time when the person walked in the room. 

It was no one else but Lucius. 

WHY TF