𝐘𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐰 𝐅𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫 || 𝐒𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐤𝐞. 𝐔

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟕

Home.

Is this home?

Yes. It is.

A house to breathe in.

Than why?

Why am I still trying to find a place that feels like home?

A place where the front door doesn't swallow me.

Where the air isn't locked from the lungs as soon as I step in - heavy, dry, struggling to breathe.

"Welcome home..."

Searching for a place that welcomes me.

Where curtains are like arms in the embrace and not a veil covering the outside world.

"Welcome home," I muttered as Kai walks in.

"How was the Carnival? Did you enjoy it?" Kai asks placing his bag on the table.

"Yes, I did. The Carnival happened last week. Why are you asking about it now.?"

For some reason, Kai seemed pissed.

"Were you alone?" Kai asks glancing at me.

My heart froze and my stomach turned icy.

Lie.

Truth.

Lie.

Truth.

suddenly the room grew hushed and the atmosphere shifted tense. an uncomfortable environment full of pressure as I was Unconsciously twitching my fingers, gazing down at my hands.

"Why?" I ask nervously.

Kai takes a few steps forward, his intimidating eyes locked with mine.

"Were. You. Alone?" Kai demands crossing his arms.

"No."

"And who were you with?" He demands clenching his fist angrily.

"Why does it matter-"

"Who were you with?"

"A friend."

"I know the truth! You were with that Uchiha guy! Someone I know saw you both laughing and hanging out that night!" Kai's voice oozed with a mixture of anger and hurt.

"Sasuke and I-"

"Shut up! Just shut up!! You lying stupid whore!" Kai yelled marching towards me in rage.

My body screams to start running but my legs are firmly stuck in the ground.

the body didn't know how to react, it just shut down. I froze to a point where I was hardly breathing.

"I- I can explain. " I uttered taking two small steps backward.

"Why did you lie to me?"

I steady my breath and try to calm the panic "I truly wanted to visit the carnival and I knew no matter how much I attempted to ensure you that sasuke is simply a friend of mine, you would never let me go out with another man"

My palms get sweaty, my heart rate increases and I feel a fluttery nervous stomach. Beads of sweat began falling down my forehead.

"What gave you the idea-" Kai harsly grabbed my arms making me gasp in fear.

"that I won't find it out!? You stupid fucking bitch! Are you cheating on me with that dude!! Huh!?"

"N-No! we are just friends!"

I notice a blend of anger and jealousy in his eyes.

He stood trembling in fury as his eyes continue glancing with a mixture of hatred, violence, hurt.

"Have you not realized how hard I work for us! Unlike you! I have a full-time job! We were struggling financially a few months ago! Fuck! You're so stupid, I can't believe I fell in love with someone so useless.! You can't do one shit right! We always fight because of you. You are the reason behind every fight and argument we ever have. And now you got the audacity to cheat on me!"

Tears spilled over and flowed down my face.

Sacred.

Angry.

Miserable.

I place my hand on his chest and pushed him away. The body continued trembling like leaf.

My fault. I lied to him.

"What about me huh? Have you ever taken my feelings into consideration? I've been by your side since day one, I did everything you asked me to do! I lied to you because we have been going through a bitter fucking rough patch! I needed some fresh air! And yes! I'm the reason why we fight all the time! I know! I'm dumb as hell! I know! But don't ever forget about the sacrifices I made for you!"

Kai scoffed rolling his eyes "sacrifices? What are you talking about?"

I could feel the flight responses kick in, increasing my heart rate, flooding me with added adrenaline.

"I refused the offer to be a part of the special medic team because of you. I stop going out on missions because of you! I even got the abortion of our twin babies because you weren't ready!" I cried out catching my breath.

Nothing appeared to make sense.

Everything looked like a nightmare that I wish to wake up from.

"I quit hanging out with friends because of you! I stop everything I loved doing because you didn't like it!" I yelled wiping my tears.

I take a deep breath as the headache and heartache increase to a restlessness level.

Gut-wrenching sobs tore through my chest. Body wracked with an onslaught of sobs and tears.

"I fuckin hate you..." I muttered bitterly.

"What did you say?"

"I said I HATE Y-"

I was interrupted by a sharp pain on my cheek, it took me a minute for realization to speed in that Kai have slapped me.

"How dare you talk to me in this way!"

This isn't the first time.

It has happened before.

"You ungrateful bitch!" Kai yelled slapping me again.

The physical pain was nothing to the hurricane I dealt with within me.

I let out a painful groan as Kai roughly yank my hair to face him.

"Out."

My eyes widen "W-What?"

"Get out before I regret doing something awful to you.."

Fear became a tangible, living force that crept over me like some hungry beast, immobilizing me; my brain, holding me captive.

Every muscle in my body screamed at me to flee, but I remained frozen.

"I said leave!" Kai clasp my wrist and began dragging me towards the front door.

I struggled to escape him but failed.

Kai slams open the door and push me out of the house, making me collapse on the cold floor.

Crying helplessly I slowly pick myself off the floor.

"Don't return home tonight!" With that Kai slammed the door shut on my face.

"Where will I go....?" I whispered sobbing.

Love.

Love.

Love.

Love is all I ever desired.

Love made me weak.

Why me?

Why?

I'm weak.

I'm dependent.

I'm worthless.