It's safer in the dark - Sequel

Part 3

CHAPTER THREE

Louis POV.

I finish throwing up and fall against the bathtub, my breathing picks up again. I need to call Cam before I can't come down from this myself. I can feel myself getting worked up. I try to calm my breathing as I dial Oli and Cam's apartment, Oli picks up.

"Hey Lou" he says cheerfully.

"Oli, um... Is Cam there?" I ask trying to breathe.

"No buddy he isn't, are you ok? You sound funny Lou" Oli says.

"Yeah, I um, I just, the paps were following me....it just was a bit much" I stumble out.

"Okay Lou, I can come?" Oli offers, but no I just really need Cameron.

"I um, I just need Cam" I whisper.

"Ok buddy, I'll get hold of him and get him to come to you okay, where are you?" He asks concerned.

"In my bathroom, I just, I need him now" I say.

"Okay, okay he won't be long Lou, I'm going to hang up so I can call him now, he is on his way" Oli says.

"Okay" I reply weakly.

I hang up and close my eyes, regulating my breaths. I have not stressed out like this in three years, I need to relax myself and get myself out of this. Kimberly used to tell me to think of something that relaxes me and focus on it as well as evening out my breaths. I used to think of Harry and his calming green eyes and calming touch and as fucked up as it is right now, it's the only thing I can think of. I think of his eyes and his smile, and his stupid dimples and I find myself relaxing and I hate myself for it.

Five minutes later I'm a lot calmer and I hear the key in the front door and Cameron entering the flat.

"Louis??" He calls me.

"Cam" I yell from the bathroom, I'm not panicking anymore but I feel lightheaded and dizzy.

He comes rushing into the room and sees me on the floor. He comes over and kneels down in front of me.

"Oh buddy, it's okay" he says to me.

He sits on the floor and pulls me to his chest. He doesn't say anything just runs his fingers slowly through my hair.

"I'm sorry Cam, I didn't mean to call you, I just got so overwhelmed with the paps and it stressed me out and well.... I spewed and then I panicked I'm sorry" I say.

"Lou, don't apologise, tell me what happened" Cameron says to me.

I take a deep breath and explain how the paparazzi and people on the street mobbed me and how they were so close to me that I couldn't move, and I stressed myself out.

"That's perfectly normal Lou, it must have been quite scary to have people pulling and pushing at you, mobbing you like that. You also haven't had an attack in so long and you handled it all by yourself, you calmed yourself down babe, before I even got here and that's a massive achievement. Don't worry about throwing up, it wasn't on purpose so don't beat yourself up about it, ok bud" Cameron tells me.

"Yeah okay, I know" I say shyly.

"Maybe we should consider getting you a security guard or something" Cam jokes and I scoff.

We sit in silence for a while on the bathroom floor before Cam speaks up.

"Come on, up you get, do you want to come to ours for dinner?" Cam asks.

"Nah thanks though. I really just need to sleep" I tell him.

I'm a little wobbly on my feet as I get up. I should probably eat something, but I really cannot be bothered right now. And I feel like I'm going to pass out any second.