It's safer in the dark - Sequel

Part 20

LOUIS POV

The next morning, I wake up and I feel like complete shit. I had the worst sleep and as I come down the stairs for breakfast, I feel exhausted. I'm still in my pyjamas and I couldn't care less. I walk into the dining room to the boys listening intently to the TV. It's not until I hear my name come from the speakers that I take any notice.

"Son of Mark Tomlinson and famous model Louis Tomlinson, made his first public appearance in five weeks last night, at the Doncaster rovers football match. A statement from Louis family confirmed he has been in hospital recovering from an infection in his kidney. Last night Louis looked well and was happy to stop for fans to take pictures and sign autographs. The Model has been highly sort out and recent reports suggest he is in high demand now that he has recovered and out of hospital. His love life seems to be taking a turn as well, as he was spotted getting cosy with a mystery blonde man at the game" the TV blares.

A picture of Dan and I laughing and smiling together comes up on the screen. I sigh, I knew this would happen. I just feel so guilty, what is Harry going to think.

The boys turn the TV off and turn around to finish eating breakfast, they see me in the doorway and smile.

"Hey Lou, how was your night last night?" Edward asks.

"Yeah it was good, Alberto was great....it was good" I say fidgeting with my fingers.

I don't know what else to say, I can't tell them about Dan can I? I'm so confused maybe they can help me figure it out, I don't know. I'm going to have to explain something, the media as usual has misconstrued everything. I'm so sick of it. I continue my thoughts as I walk in and sit at the table. I take a bowl from the centre and pour in my usual breakfast of oats. Oats fill me up and have low calories, so they are a safe food for me. I grab the kettle filled with boiling water that's ready for me in the middle of the table and pour it in. I don't let my mind think about eating at all, If I do, I will go backwards. I focus on my other thoughts about what the fuck I'm going to do about Dan and Harry and how much I'm angry at the paps and it's making me not want to go back to work again.

The boys are looking at me and sharing looks of concern, I can't concentrate on my thoughts they are distracting me.

"I'm fine, stop looking at me like that" I say frustratingly.

"Okay babe, we are here when you're ready to talk" Scott says.

"I don't want to go back to work Scott. I'm sick of the media and how they follow my every move" I yell.

"Okay, calm down Kid" Andy says.

"What's happened Louis?" Drew asks.

Tears sting my eyes.

"What am I famous for? Because of dad and because I can take a good fucking picture, I loved my job, I did, I still do......it's just now I'm being followed and mobbed, and people report on my every move. I'm not dating Dan, but now the world thinks I am, I don't want Daniel to feel uncomfortable and I don't want Harry too either. I'm scared that they are going to dig up my past and I don't want that to come out. I don't want to work with Zach either, I never want to see him again. I just hate it right now" I yell frustratingly.

"It's okay Louis, you don't have to go back to work right now, no one is making you do anything. You need to focus on yourself and what's right for you at the moment" Drew says

"Zach isn't working anymore either Louis, the media caught on to the fact he was dealing drugs and using. He was caught with possession and as a result his campaigns dropped him when they heard the news. He left you out of everything, your name wasn't mentioned after we got our legal team involved. You won't have to worry about working with him anymore" Scott tells me.