Do you know who you are?

Chapter 8

When Louis woke up the next morning, he still couldn't make sense of the conversation he overheard last night. Seeing as he couldn't remember anything, his best bet was to simply ask his sister about it.

Louis sat up in bed slowly. He swung his legs over the side and remained there for a few minutes. Who would have thought that those simple movements would make him feel out of breath already. Not him, that is for sure.

After he felt ready to stand up, he took a deep breath in and pushed himself up from the bed. He had to walk along the side of the wall to be able to keep himself up. Maybe he should have called Dan to help him but he was stubborn and he'd rather fall down the stairs trying to be independent.

Standing on top of the stairs, he started rethinking his decision. Did the staircase get steeper over night, he asked himself.

„What are you doing standing there?" He heard a voice asking. Louis turned around, letting go of the wall to put his hands to his heart. His breathing accelerated.

„Jesus Christ. Warn a guy barely standing up by himself next to a staircase, would you?" He was still trying to catch his breath.

„Right, sorry. I didn't mean to scare you." Dan said, looking at him with a sad smile on his face.

„It's ok. At least you are not treating me any different. But none the less, I think I could use your help here." Louis didn't like asking for help, but he knew that falling down the stairs might, or most likely only injure him further.

„Of course." Dan came up to Louis steadying him with an arm around his waist. They took one step at a time to not trip over their own feet. When they made it downstairs safely Louis looked around the living room.

„Is Lottie here? I want to ask her something."

„No. She went to London to talk to the band. That reminds me, I actually want to talk to you about something." Dan carefully said, trying to start the conversation they needed to have.

„You don't need to ask permission to ask me something you know? You can just ask me. I won't break because of one question." Louis walked slowly towards the couch to sit down.

„Right. If you are okay with it Lottie would bring one of the guys back here so you could have a chat? Only if you feel comfortable with it of course." Dan added.

And oh. Louis didn't expect this to happen so soon. He barely found out he lost his memory and now he was supposed to meet the people he forgot about? People who were probably not happy about him losing the memory of 6 years spent together.

„I mean... Isn't that a little soon?" Louis tried to get out of this one somehow.

„If it feels that way to you, that's completely fine. I know they have been waiting for a few weeks to see you again, but if you are not comfortable with it yet, then they will have to wait. We don't want to overwhelm you in any way." Dan walked towards Louis to sit down beside him.

„I don't think it will overwhelm me. It's just that they are probably mad at me for forgetting and I don't want to deal with that because I don't know how to." Louis curled in on himself on the couch.

„To be honest, I think you are only giving yourself the fault for this. You can't do anything about the amnesia. It was not your fault in any way that it happened and I think it's easier for you to just blame yourself because there is no one else to blame for this," Dan reasoned.

„There is no one else to blame because it's my fault. Doctor said it himself, some trauma caused it and my brain decided it was a great idea to forget about it." Louis rubbed his hand over his eyes, trying to hide the tear drops that were starting to fall.