In search of the word me and myself

Another Episode

Random thoughts, stories jumbled, can anyone get what going on in that mind of Betti ahh i forgot my character name also. Better right in first person right. Will i be appreciated or will I be criticized? No wait because it matters I don't wanna know about it. It is what I fears the most the thoughts of others it scares me what other thinks of me. Is it because of my inferiority complex or is it because of my lack of trust? I dont know. All I know is I am having another epiosode reminiscing the past. I miss my highschool days. I miss my mates my teachers my times. The times where I hated my teachers for being strict, for sleeping in their class doing what not sinks in. Was I a good student does teachers liked me i i wanted to know that i want to know that but no. I have I wish i could.

The feeling that she was going through. The jumbled thought she tried to arrange. The society she tried to fight. She didn't know what was going on with her. She wished how she wished she could pin point her thoughts. She had watch so many dtamas and series. Her life felt like a drama where there were dramatic times left unsolved. Her imagination ran wild and in those she found comfort and warth. She found herself crying and smiling over those silly thoughts. You know sometimes the feeling is best known when its expressed. That was what she wanted to do but what could she do. She has that fear of society, fear of that judgement, the fear she could never get rid of. Or will she be able to?