1. Hit or Miss

Chapter Forty

I landed about ten minutes before seven in the evening. Michigan weather was well normal for the summer. Hot as shit and showing no mercy. I stood there breathing in Metro Airport's atmosphere and truly felt home at last. I looked around to the familiar things that I remembered as I went to luggage claims then out to my truck. It took no time to grab up my things and strut to greet my long-missed vehicle. It was exactly how I left it and I couldn't have been more pleased to be in control of something again.

I threw my things in the cab and started it up. I revved the engine just to make sure it was awake and ready to go. I threw it in reverse and pulled out of my spot. Before I knew it I was slamming on the breaks due to a black, tinted, Chevy cobalt, had decided to not see me and flew passed my bed almost taking it out. I sat for a moment to watch it park two spaces over. My head was telling me I was going to be wrong, but something made me stare and just wait. The driver got out and my senses all dimmed to disappointment. I had no idea whom I was expecting to exit the vehicle, but that no longer mattered. Why would anyone specific be here? They had no business being here. What did it matter? I left to make sure it didn't. I threw my shift in drive and headed back for home.

I made sure to just avoid the radio, my playlists, my anything to do with reminders of whomever. I didn't even look over to the right mirrors much because of this. My drive home took a good half hour and I decided to even take the fast way. How in the world was I going to just sit for longer than needed? I wasn't. I pulled into my driveway and quickly got out to unload. I wanted to just get everything done so I could work on something I been planning since I got on the plane. I needed a reason to stay busy, and needed a new way to express myself. I made sure to call my old boss at the diner as well and apologize until I turned blue. I was in need of my job back.

My phone remained off and I still was refusing to touch it. Nothing was going to follow me home that I didn't allow. I wound up turning on my desktop pc I had for a bit and took back out the webcam I had from ages ago. I set it up and let it install as I unpacked and put all my dirty clothes in the wash. I figured there was no use sorting them and I lazily threw em all in at once. My caring part of me was in her own vacation and I figured I would deal with the consequences later.

After I was unpacked, I changed into something comfortable but still cute. I ran a brush through my hair and styled it very similar to how Suzy had done it. I smiled sweetly to see what me smiling looked liked. My mask was still on and I was fooling myself into believing I was actually okay. I sat infront of the camera and hit record.

"Hey guys! Alright so! This is my first post so bear with me. Seriously, laugh after! Anyway so I just wanted to give a post Great Lakes Comicon review of my own. I know a ton of those who are around here have mentioned their own, well this is mine!" I made a slide show from my camera and it came to the first picture of the building itself. "Oh wow, this place was pretty awesome! I think the space was impeccable just great job! I know that sounds lame, but seriously I expected it to be maybe a half size smaller!" The next picture was the entire view from the entrance doors. "HOLY SHIT! CAN YOU GUYS FEEL THE NERD LOVE!? Oh man just from walking in I got to see not even half of what was really there. There was over in the left, all the green, oh man, all of those were Xboxes and it was awesome! I totally wish I had a picture, but I met and got a chance to chat with the ProJared from YouTube! He actually snuck up on me on accident while I was checking out the new demo, but it was amazing! Great guy if you ever get a chance to talk with him!" I pointed to the muffin stand that was closer in view, "Over there is called "Sweet Street". Can I just give a shout out to the amazing creator of this booth?! She totally had the best muffins I ever tasted, if you ever get the chance, please stop there for a snack, just wow!" I flipped to the next picture without missing a beat. It was of the line for seeing the panel. I inhaled trying to keep composure and continued. No one was going to know about my terrible turn of events, "Okay so boring one if you have no idea whom this line was for! It was indeed for the grumps and I will say I had the best time there! Everyone was fun, and it was amazing! All the grumps were kind and funny! Not to mention but I even got to ask a question, I'm sure it is on a video somewhere but it may sound lame, but really when you're nervous, it's hard to think ya know?" I flipped to the next photo which I did not take. It was clearly a shock because my pause the entire time was followed by a gasp. I inhaled noticing that it was clearly not in Michigan due to palm trees on the side of the road and the sunset behind me was gorgeous. The picture was of me in someone's car in my bra but it looked like a bikini instead with how I was sitting. I had a huge smile on my face and I was looking over to something infront of us. In the reflection in the window, I barely saw his face. Though, anyone could make out whom took it and now it was in the video I was doing. His hair was still wet, his grin was so proud and warm, and you could make out his long fingers sneaking the picture. I inhaled harshly and continued. Mine as well say something, I shrugged to myself. "I um, wow, okay, so after the con, I did meet up with some friends in California. Um, if anyone has seen, at all, yes I got to hang with the Game Grumps. Now yes be jealous they all are," my mask slowly ripped off piece by piece, "really warm, loving, fun, and caring people. Like I got to work with Barry and Kevin for a day. I got to hang out with Arin and Suzy in their amazing home. Uh Ross and Daniel actually are very much so in a love slash hate thing. Their banter is funny on and off camera. I am blessed to have had the opportunity to have experienced this passing week with them. I wouldn't trade it for the world. Um, the particular picture you see is of a night that I hung out with one of them and we took a drive to show me the ocean. I never knew this was on here until I showed you guys so, yeah. Convention review for me, totally five start, A for effort, and as they would mock, IGN ten outta ten guys! I really hope someone gets the same feels out of it. I know it's a rare thing to have my chance to actually hang with them after, but, anything can happen in this crazy, unpredictable, fun, world! So don't let little things get you down, don't wait on hopeless and hurtful people, and my last piece of advice is for literally anyone including myself, don't got through life thinking you're not special. You are. To me. Always. Okay so feel free to click the buttons to make it known you'd like me to keep doing these, I am going to grab some needed sleep now! See you all later, byeee!!"