It's Not Easy To Be A Princess Consort In A Matriarchy World

Chapter 4.2

"Ugh..."

Xue Yufei felt uncomfortable, so uncomfortable. Having a late stage cancer called mysophobia, she can't stand even a tiny dot of unknown substance on her. Much less at her present state, it was unknown what will happen if she regain back a little clarity of mind.

She bewilderingly shook her waist. Something was not right. Her insides felt weird as if a hot rod is stuck there. Her body is full of sweat so sticky mixed with unknown substances that she just wanted to scratch her skin off, shed it off and change to a new clean skin but humans don't shed skin like snakes- one thing Xue Yufei envied at the hated creature.

Her long eyelashes shook and revealed an astonishing coldness within. But soon she couldn't keep herself calm. Underneath her body was a scene of a crime.

"........" ¥€^##$$$#!!!

Her eyes felt like it was burned. It was so spicy. The image she saw below her was so spicy that she can't help but gasp in cold air.

Fuck. Why is she at the scene of a rape?
From her sight, the figure below her is badly ravaged. Was he gnawed by a beast or there was someone worst than a beast and that was Xue Yufei herself?

The pitiable figure below her curled up against her, still tightly connected with their own most intimate parts. His brows furrowing as if he was stuck with some kind of nightmare. His face as if carved by the careful hands of god, it was so beautiful. It became more bewitching now in his ravaged state.

Xue Yufei unknowingly ignored the blaring existence of germs around her, seemingly as if her soul got captured by the beautiful face below her. She stretched out her slender fingers, reaching out to touch if the face that was so close to her is real. But her face suddenly changed.

Wait a minute. Why did... Why did she felt sore inside? Shouldn't she felt satisfied just like when she first and last used her five finger girl when she was a young and ignorant little female alpha? (ahem-mast*rbation)

Something suddenly flowed on her body and that feeling was so indescribable that she felt a chill up her spine. What was that? Did this man cum.. inside her?

Suddenly Xue Yufei's face turned black. Forgetting to question why there is a thing inside her, a thing that she was familiar with but that's not hers, if it's hers, why is it inside her? He even cum inside her.!

Instead she focused on another.

Various negative emotions exploded within her. Her body suddenly felt a tingling of disgust. Goosebumps rising at the thought of someone's stain on her body. She tried to contain her dizziness and urge to vomit.

You can't blame Xue Yufei for her reaction as this was the work of her own psychological trauma. Images of being once thrown on a garbage dump in grime and dirt, watching her enemies entangling bodies even amongst the filth, gave her a bout of lightheadedness because of disgust causing her to have the desire to just destroy this unclean world.

That wretch looked so happy at being serviced by various men at the same time in front of her- the abandoned fiancee.

Their show of lewdness and debauchery as they repeatedly humiliated her, and her little omega younger brother's heartbroken face that soon became lifeless as his fiancee became her own ex-fiancee's alpha. She hated those filth, her dirty self, and these dirty world!

All of these should be cleaned!

This world and those all filthy things should just go die but even their blood will be like an annoying stain left on herself so she should clean herself also.

Why.. she accepted Bai Lianhua greening her but they caused her younger brother's tragedy, caused their entire Xue Clan's demise.

The whole Empire she protected.. betrayed her!

Why should they have a happy ending even if they are the protagonists? Why did her younger brother have to bear the pain of humiliation and forced to commit su*cide.

Why?

Why!

As her thoughts grew more and more distorted, a clear pair of beautiful eyes met her shrunken pupils. Something inside her seemed to snap and the past seems to have been forgotten by her at that moment when those pure clean eyes looked at her in despairing manner.

"Y.. you.!" The man's tempting and ravaged lips trembled, his eyes hazy but Xue Yufei recognized the various complicated feelings; the deep fear and despair within the beautiful man's eyes made Xue Yufei felt a pang of pain and guilt.

She froze. What to do with this kind of situation?

Xue Yufei felt vile and disgusted with herself. Is she the one who forced herself to him?

How could she.?!

How is she different from a beast?

Xue Yufei tried hard to remember what happened before she had passed out. She remembered placing him far away from her.. but..

She looked around.

So it was she who approached him and forced herself to him?

Xue Yufei's face alternated with white, red and black. She can't accept that she lost control of herself.

"You.. you.. I can explain!"

The beautiful man's phoenix eyes slightly widened. Xue Yufei felt like slapping herself, what will she explain? That she can't remember the process of [beeping-] him? And that it was just because she had lost control of herself?

But that was too scumbag!

The beautiful man's expression turned into panic. He suddenly pushed her away from him. In the process, a shameful sound was heard as the two reproductive organs separated, causing his pallid face to reddened with shame and shyness.

But Xue Yufei's face solidified. She looked at the beautiful young man's red face filled with spring, who resembled a lovely omega after the deed.

W-who's thing was just pulled out just now? Isn't it hers?