i woke up this morning and i felt my heart start to race. i would get really bad anxiety every morning because of him. i ran my hand down my chest and got out of bed. i got into my school uniform and slid my shoes on. i then grabbed my bag and walked out of my room, down my hall, and into the living room. i took my hair out of it's braid and unraveled it. i then sat on the couch and closed my eyes for a few minutes before opening them. i looked at my phone and upon seeing the time, i decided it was time to head to school.
i walked out my apartment and closed the door, slowly locking it. i finished locking it and headed down the hall. i decided i was going to take the stairs today since i saw a lot of people waiting outside the elavator. i rushed down the stairs and when i got to the bottom i went out the side entrance and onto the sidewalk.
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i arrived outside the school and ran to the driveway so that i couldn't be given a late pass. i had my headphones in this whole time as music blasted into my ears. i loved music and would listen to it all the time. i honestly liked any genre, well any genre except for country.
i walked into the building and to my homeroom class. i walked inside and to my seat. at the beginning of the school year my teacher, ms. park, assigned us all our permanent seats for the year. of course, with my luck, i was assigned the seat next to the one and only gwi-nam. i sat down in my seat and put my backpack on the back of the chair. i put my arms on my desk and put my head on them, closing my eyes as i listened to the music.
i was enjoying myself but was interrupted when i felt my hair be grabbed and yanked back. i knew exactly who that was. i sat back in my seat and held my phone tightly in my hands that rested in my lap. i didn't even look his way. as i looked down at my desk, still listening to my music, i saw ms. park walk in and i knew i had to take my headphones out. i then slide my phone into my pocket and grab my fake one out. "good morning class. you know the drill, come hand in your phones." ms. park instructed everyone. groans were heard but people did as she said, even if they weren't exactly handing in their actual phones.
after handing in my phone i walked back to my seat and sat down. "let me take attendance first." ms. park said as she pulled out her clipboard which had the attendance sheet on it. she then looked at us and started marking who was present and who wasn't. i randomly felt the need to throw up and so i raised my hand. "ms. park," i call out and she looks up from the paper. "yes lucia?" she asks. "i gotta use the bathroom." i say and she sighs, "you should've gone in homeroom, lucia." the woman tells me. "i know, sorry." i say and she shrugs, "go ahead. just don't take too long." i'm told and i just nod my head in response.
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i sit on the closed toilet as i smoke a cigarette, my headphones in as i decided to just listen to one song. i closed my eyes as i took some puffs. once the song finished i decided i would just listen to one more. so i did just that. once the second song finished i decided that was enough. i let my cigarette out on the stall wall, dropped my cigarette on the floor, and headed back to class.
i walked back into the class and sat down, ms. park had already begun the lesson but i didn't really care. i took out my notebook and begun to take some random notes when i felt gwi-nam grab my arm harshly. i tried not to react so ms. park or anyone else didn't look. i then felt him start to write on my hand with a marker. once he finished he let go of me and i pulled my hand back towards myself. i looked down at it and saw "whore" written on it. i had gotten that nickname by him when i had a guy over and he saw. guess what this asshole did. gwi-nam had spread the rumour that he had heard us fucking and that several guys would come over all the time. me and the guy didn't even do anything like that, we were just doing homework together because we were both having trouble. also, i never had any other guys over, ever. gwi-nam just wanted to ruin my reputation. why, because he was a bully. that's just what he did.
i tried to rub the marker off or at least smear it so that you couldn't read what it said but it did nothing. i then moved that arm off my desk and into my lap and i heard gwi-nam lowly chuckle next to me. i wanted to cry. i knew it was just a stupid fake nickname but it hurt. especially since other people knew about this nickname as well.
