i walked into class and immediately sat down in my seat. i didn't even glance gwi-nam's direction. as soon as i sat down matt walked up to me. "hey." he said with a smile. "hey matt." i say. "are you okay what happened?" he asked me as i felt his eyes looking at me neck. shit, i had forgotten to cover the bruising because i was in such a rush this morning. "yeah, i'm good. i just have sensitive skin." i told him and he just nodded. "so, have you thought about it?" he asked, referring to hanging out. "yeah, i'm not sure when i'm free though so i'll just let you know later." i tell the boy who just nods his head. "alright, well i'll leave you be now." matt tells me with a smile and i just nod before i turn to my phone.
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i sat in my bed and went onto my messages with matt. "hey, it's lucia. we can hang out tomorrow after school. i mean it's a friday so yeah." i sent and immediately i saw the "read 5:47" under the message. the three dots came up on the other side. "yeah, sure :) we can hang at my place?" he sent. i smiled, "yeah, sure." i answer. "good, we'll walk there together after school." he sent.
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i waited for matt as he got his stuff together. i had kind of avoided gwi-nam all day today and yesterday. it felt good. matt slung his backpack on and turned to me. "alright let's go." he said and i nodded before following after him.
we walked with one another to his place, getting to know one another more. we got in front of his place, the apartment building was the nicest i had ever seen. i followed after him as we walked inside and into the elevator. we both stood there in silence as the elevator went up. a ding was heard and the doors opened and we walked into the clean hall. i had never been somewhere so nice. "it's just over here." matt told me and walked up to one of the apartments. he unlocked the door and we walked inside. "woah." i say as i look around. "alright, so what do you wanna do?" he asks me as he takes his bag off. "i mean, we can watch a movie?" i suggest. "yeah, sure." matt walks over to the couch and follow after him, placing my bag on the floor against the couch. "do you like 'call me by your name'?" he asks me. "i love call me by your name." i answer. "good." he says with a smirk as he turns it on.
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we're both sitting there watching the movie and i feel him "slyly" putting his arm over my shoulder. i felt weird but i didn't do anything. i randomly got this bad gut feeling but i ignored it. i then feel his other hand slide onto my bare leg, inching it's way up. i awkwardly push it off me but he puts it on me again. "stop." i murmur but he keeps sliding his hand up. "stop matt." i tell the boy. "come on." he says as his hand slides under my skirt. "no, stop it." i tell him as he grab his hand and push it off me. "stop being so uptight." matt says as he goes to kiss me. i try to stand up but i'm pushed down. "can you stop." i say as i try to push him off but he's too strong and kisses me. "stop!" i say louder against his mouth and he aggressively starts to kiss me. i knee him in his crotch and he groans in pain. i push him off me and onto the floor and get off the couch. i grab my backpack and rush to put my shoes on.
i run out of the apartment and into the elevator. i shakily push the button to get to the lobby. the door closes and i put my hand on the wall taking depe breathes. i was having a panic attack. the door opens and i run through the lobby. i run onto the sidewalk and run home.
i walk inside my apartment and close the door as i kick off my shoes. my mother was home which was kind of unexpected because i thought she would work later. "are you okay honey?" she asked, noticing my upsetness. "i'm fine mom." i lie as i head to my room and close the door, locking it. i go to my bed and slowly crawl into it as i start to feel tears building up in my eyes. i then start to sob into my pillow.
