In love with a Lolita

Chapter 15 - FEAR

In love with a Lolita

~ Chapter 15 – FEAR ~

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If anything I would love to forget what happened yesterday. It was like a bad smell that won’t go away; mind you I had things done to me before. I lied when I said I knew who I was, at moments I would tend to forget and think to myself was it worth it, and was it worth what I did for myself?

Then I would hear my father’s voice and say to myself that no, I wasn’t alone, there was millions in the world who would do what I did. Fight for what I knew was what I believed in. I wouldn’t want to make a mistake and say to myself that I wasn’t ok with what went on with me, but then I would learn from it.

I saw Callum’s face contort in disgust when he stared at me; I was still hidden inside the depth of Cyrus’s arms. Engulfed but I still felt cold, he had carried me to the nurses office. I was only bruised she did ask me many questions all which I knew I had no answers to of course.

I was a coward and a loser; I wasn’t sure what was wrong with me. I wasn’t taught to be this I was finding it hard to trust not just me but others too. When the nurse gave me the all clear I realised that I had no clothing. I saw Cyrus has left some on the bed and I felt grateful. When I dressed and went out I saw him standing confused and worried, I don’t know why but it made me feel better.

“I’m fine already you can go” I said and he looked taken back

“What are you talking about in your condition? You need to go the office and complain” Cyrus complained

“Listen to me Cyrus, I don’t care anymore this is nothing I don’t want any trouble anymore and if I go and say something things will be worse” I growled back it was the first time I saw him so angry, why he cared was beyond me.

“I postponed the mission for tomorrow you need a rest” he sighed and rubbed his hands across his face.

“Thank you” I genuinely felt happy about that, I did need a long rest.

“I’ll drive you home it seems like Callum left after seeing you” Cyrus muttered and I wasn’t at all shocked by it

“It happens” I replied

It didn’t take that long the following day had come early, I was stuck choosing an outfit again. I went downstairs and crashed into Callum, I saw him jolt away from me there was a faraway look on his face.

I knew deep down that whatever his girlfriend did was wrong but he didn’t want to admit it. I was sure he did worse things but he felt awkward next to me and I wasn’t sure why. Did he find out I was actually his sister? This was making me feel weird again.

I wanted to say something he looked lost, but I had agreed not to say anything only because there was no point. I was still hurting a lot from yesterday and I felt in my bones something was going to be worse today. As for the mission it wasn’t hard but I was worried about it. To think they needed a girl to blend into this job, why did I go and take things beyond my control only made me wonder what lay ahead.

“I was thinking of walking away soon” I heard the man’s voice on the other side, I was sure he was up to something. “It will be soon when things will reveal itself things are slowly going as planned”

I don’t know why but this man was super slimy, I always shivered in disgust when he was near me. I was thinking of what he was talking about it was like the same as Jenson they all spoke cryptic or I kept missing the first part. I was still wondering what he was doing now, how could he be their father.