See that pic at the top well that's me all smiling and happy, I look like I'm a normal teen well that's what you would think. But no I was broken torn to pieces I was all put together on the outside tho. I'm like a puzzle the edges are done first and it's technically impossible to pice together the inside. But now the picture is becoming more clear, there may be no core but the outside picture is getting bigger but the inside is disappearing every time someone manages to place a pice down. Maybe the outside picture will on day be complet just covering up the big picture, so I'd just be so good I would even convince myself I was ok. But I know that the big picture will never be complete the inside of me were all the truth is hidden and the lies are being made, and then the liesbubble to the surface and even when I want to tell the truth so bad I just blurt out my lie. it's like word vomit even tho I want to say one thing the lie just come out, I know it weird but it's true and people always think I'm lying even when I'm telling the truth. So I just don't say anything now this is the book that I can't write down what I've always wanted to say. Also that's why I'm always talking, I can't say what I want so I'm always saying something else things that mean nothing. Because if I say nothing people will know everything and I really didnt want that, so if I had something else to say I would be able think about it. Then when I'm not talking I'm listening and think of what they said but I talk more because to me it's more effective. But then there's the moment everything is quite and there's nothing to be doing nothing to be thinking about, so I'm there thinking about everything all at once. But I'm just spaced out I listen to everything around me but at the same time I'm not, so if you know me know you know why I space out a lot and then seem all confused when I come back to reality.
Now my next chapter well pay attention cus it's all about my big mistake if I didn't make that mistake my life would be completely different so it's gonna take a while to have the confidence to write but just wait you'll find out eventually.
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Non-FictionI just want to say hi really cus I never get a change too, there's a lot of thing's I can't say cus bad hing will happen so I just decided just to write them down. This book is about my like and I think you should know if you hate self harm, suicid...
