I just want to say... Hi?

Crashing helped me bleed

So now it's going all down hill I've settled in school I have great friend and nothing's wrong, but everything is wrong.

Right now this is so hard for me to actually admit this right now so if you don't like gory, blood, a sharp blades I would suggest you stop reading. You should really just find a story about unicorns and that shit, so let's just start.

Now to be honest I can't remember that clearly because if people want to forget thing really badly there brain will do that, and well that's happens to me. But because I wanted to forget so many thing my brain now forgets things very easily, so if you know me that why I forget things a lot. That means there might be some pizzle pieces missing from my jigsaw but I'm going to try and help you see the picture clearly.

I wasn't at school and my day was going shit so all I wanted to do was go home but I couldn't, so I just put a stupid smile on my face and then went home at the end of the day. Then I was at home relaxed watching Netflix, sadly my brother Kai his friend came round and when they're together they both give me shit and are so horrible. Bulling me about my weight how I look all that shit and it really hurt me, so I was all calm and normal around them until I got into my room. I sat there and just cried, until I got up broke a razor and held the blade in my hand say on my bed crying and then I was just... Just angry... with myself. I had the blade in my hand standing front of my cabinet, my hands shaking like crazy and then well.
There was no pain no hurting just blood everywhere I stood there crying I just cut deeper and deeper, I could see my skins bursting open nothing there then blood started to pour out. The cuts were much deeer now blood everywhere, then I stopped because it started to hurt to much, the pain was seeping in but after there was over 20 cuts all over my hand I was not proud of myself but I dint regret it. I ran down stairs an grabbed a bandage and then ran to my room and put it around my hand. I genuinely cried myself to sleep. Untill I made a huge mistake...